How to use "her" in a sentence
Sentences
I told her I was going to Utah and promised to be back for her party
I tell her how proud I am of her and send her my love and best wishes.
He called Mrs Ralston for the license-plate number of her son's truck
Aron had given it to her in a hurry and made a mistake.
This left her with another problem
Alice and her big sister sat under a tree one sunny day
Alice's sister had a book, but Alice had nothing with her
She looked at her sisters book
Suddenly, a white rabbit ran past her
She thought about her cat, Dinah
'What's Dinah doing? Will they remember her milk tonight? Oh, Dinah! Why aren't you here with me? Perhaps there's a mouse here and you can eat it!'
She put her head down and looked through the door into a beautiful garden
She felt the top of her head with her hand
Because she was very big, her tears were very big too.
She began to think about her friends
'I'm not Ada because her hair is different to mine
But this time her tears were small tears - she was small again!
She had the White Rabbit's hat in her hand.
It was the right size for her head.
She tried to put her feet on the ground but she couldn't
The water was her tears.
There, very near her, was a mouse.
She remembered some words from her schoolbook, so she spoke to the mouse in French.
The Mouse moved quickly away from her.
The Mouse looked angrily at her and swam quickly away.
When they saw her, they got out of the water too.
I haven't got any chocolates.' But then she saw a box of chocolates near her feet.
They all stood round Alice again, and the Dodo gave her the box.
'I want her with me.'
Alice loved to talk about her cat
She can catch a mouse in the morning for her breakfast and a little bird in the evening for her dinner - Oh! I'm sorry!'
Another bird called to her children, 'Come away, my dears! It's time for bed!'
Perhaps I'll never see her again!'
The White Rabbit saw her
Perhaps I'll watch mouse-holes for her!'
One of her arms was outside the window
When she could hear the Rabbit outside the window, she moved her arm up and down
Alice moved her arm again
Everything was quiet for a short time, then something hard hit her arm.
The White Rabbit saw her
He ran after her but Alice ran too fast for him
She looked all round her, but she couldn't see anything with 'EAT ME' or 'DRINK ME' on it
There were some mushrooms near her
Alice put her hands behind her back and repeated:
Then she went to the Caterpillars mushroom and broke off some of it with her right hand
She went to the brown mushroom and did the same with her left hand.
Suddenly, her head hit her foot.
She quickly ate a little from the white mushroom in her left hand
In a short time, she was her right size again.
Inside, a large, ugly woman sat with a baby in her arms
But the Duchess did not say anything to her, so Alice asked, 'Please, why is your cat smiling?'
It didn't hit her, but she left the room quickly.
She looked round her and jumped
The cat didn't answer her
'You tell her, Seven,' Five said.
'No,' said Seven,' You tell her, Two.'
She looked at Alice and shouted, 'Cut off her head! Cut-'
The King put his hand on her arm
Alice turned round and there was the White Rabbit next to her.
'They're going to cut off her head!' he said.
There was something above her head.
Ask her about it.'
She put her arm through Alice's and they walked through the garden.
'Cut off her head! Cut off his head!' she shouted, every two or three minutes.
The King looked at her
'Ask her some questions,' the White Rabbit said to the King.
'Cut off her head!' shouted the Queen
'Cut off her head!' shouted the Queen.
Then she opened her eyes...
She was under it, next to her sister
Her sister's hand was on her hair.
'Wake up, Alice dear,' her sister said
She sat up and told her sister about the White Rabbit and the rabbit-hole
When she finished her story, her sister laughed.
I went and sat with her, and she remembered me!
Next evening, Jenny arrived at our house, wearing a white dress, and with a pink flower in her hair
But when I did this, people looked at me, and Jenny got down lower and lower in her place
Once I thought she was on the floor, and I put my hand on her shoulder to pull her up
But I pulled her dress, and it came open, and she screamed.
I tried to put my hands in front of her, because there were people looking at us
I phoned Mom to tell her.
She had a big smile on her face, and she held my hand.
She wasn't angry about the cinema, and she asked me to have a drink with her!
Three or four other people were in the group with her, and they made a good sound
'I didn't learn anywhere,' I told her.
I got a letter from my Mom, and I wrote back to her that everything was OK
I also wrote a letter to Jenny Curran and asked Mom to ask her parents to send it on to her
Just before I left the hospital in Danang, I had a letter from her
Now that I was free from the army, I just wanted to go and see her
Her hair was all the way down her back, and she was wearing sun-glasses - at night! She was wearing blue jeans and a shirt with lots of colours on it
'Forrest Gump!' And she ran out of the door and threw her arms round me.
We talked together until it was time for her to sing again.
And I put my arm round her.
She sat down across my legs and put her arms round me
I started to walk towards her, but she turned and walked away
'What's wrong with her?' I asked one of the two men.
'She was there all night before we could get her out.'
Jenny was in the back of the car now, so I went over and talked to her through the window
I told her how I felt - I was sorry about the girl, and I didn't want to play in the group without her
But because my medal was a more famous medal than theirs, it was more important to Jenny and her friends.
I went up behind her and said, 'That looks like a nice apple.' She didn't look up
A minute later, I had my arms round her and we were both crying
And I told her all about that, and about Sue, the ape.
Somehow, when I was helping Miss Welch to escape from the jungle, her dress came off and I had to run into the trees to hide her
I wanted to find her again
'I don't hear from her very often,' she said
Her hair was different, and she looked a bit older, and a bit tired, but it was her all right
'What are you doing here?' I asked her.
'Perhaps he would be an idiot,' I finished for her.
'Perhaps I can put things right with Jenny,' I thought, 'now that I've found her again.' But the more I thought about it, the more I finally understood that it was better for the boy to be with Jenny and her husband, and not to have an idiot for a father.
This note was a promise that all men, yes, black men as well as white men, would be guaranteed the "Unalienable Rights" of "Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness." It is obvious today that America has defaulted on this promissory note, insofar as her citizens of color are concerned
Nature still offers her bounty and human efforts have multiplied it
He introduced me to her, explaining that she was his niece
I looked at her carefully
'She wants to know who her shadow is.'
'We are alone, you know - since Margaret died.' Miss Niner looked sad at her uncle's words
The memory of her sister was clearly still very painful to her
Miss Niner began to tell me about her uncle
She was worried about what would happen to her uncle when she died
Suddenly I interrupted her.
I walked with her to the hand-carriage before she had time to object.
I did not stay there with her for more than two minutes
Within five minutes I saw her walking up the beach with a grey-haired man
You're the man who's already killed one innocent girl for her money
I could not save her - but I promised to pursue you to the end
Mary Ann Nichols was in 'Frying Pan' pub on the corner of Brick Lane, spending her last pennies on drink
She needed the money to pay for a bed in the 'White House', her lodging house in Flower and Dean Street
Mary Ann Nichols was still walking the streets when her friend Ellen Holland saw her at 2.30 a.m
Ellen asked Polly to come with her to the lodgings in Thrawl Street
After that only one person saw her alive again - her killer.
'I think Mr Cross interrupted her killer.'
Polly Nichols died just a few days after her forty-third birthday
And her father said, 'I don't think she had any enemies
The man probably strangled Polly first, put her on the ground, and cut her throat
On the first floor Mrs Richardson and her grandson lived in three rooms, and she let out the other rooms
Her son, John, helped her in the business but he did not live in Hanbury Street
Chandler arrived at number 29 and noted down that the woman was lying on her back, with a deep cut from left to right across her throat and mutilations to her stomach
The inspector saw a piece of muslin and two small combs that the murderer had put near her feet
The killer also took some rings from her finger
Her clothes were all old and dirty: a long black jacket down to her knees, petticoats, stockings, a black skirt, and boots
Annie Chapman - or Dark Annie to her friends - was 47 years old
Annie drank a lot and her marriage broke down
The small sum of money which she received from her husband stopped when he died in 1886
Sometimes she borrowed money from her relatives
But her taste for alcohol dominated her life, and eventually she had to walk the streets as a prostitute.
Let us follow Annie's movements before the night of her murder
But the week before her murder she was not at the lodging house
When she met her friend Amelia Palmer on September 2nd and 3rd she showed her the black eye and a bruise on her face
She looked pale, so Amelia gave her two pennies to buy something to eat
on September 8th Annie was in the kitchen of her lodging house, eating potatoes and talking with the other lodgers
She told the deputy that she did not have any money, but asked him to keep her bed because she wanted to return with the money
Nobody saw her alive again; she never came back for her bed.
on her way to Spitalfields market, she noticed a man and a woman talking outside number 29
The woman wore a red flower on her jacket
Suddenly the man pulled the woman into the street and threw her down on to the pavement
Mr Diemschutz, anxious about the safety of his wife, went into the club to look for her
He found her safe with some club members and told them about the woman
He examined the dead woman and saw that she had a deep cut in her throat
He noticed a scarf round her neck
Had the killer seized the scarf from behind and pulled her to the ground, where he cut her throat?
He noted the dead woman's height - 1.57m - and guessed her age, about 42
Her stockings were white, her bonnet black, and she was wearing boots
There was one red rose on her jacket.
A man named Michael Kidney also identified her
He said she lived with him and her name was Elizabeth Stride
He had seen her for the last time on September 25th
Elizabeth sometimes stayed at a lodging house in Flower and Dean Street, where people called her Long Liz
Although we do not know what time the killer arrived there, we know what his victim did and can follow her movements on the night of September 29-30th.
With the help of another constable Robinson took her to Bishopsgate Street Police Station
Twenty-five minutes later the policeman took her from her cell to the office
The woman said her name was Mary Ann Kelly, but her real name was Catherine Eddowes.
He went with her to the street door and asked her to shut it when she left.
Catherine said, 'Good night.' And she went to meet her fate at the hands of Jack the Ripper.
We can imagine her singing to herself as she walked along, a small woman, about 1.52m, and thin
She looked about forty, and had dark brown hair under her black bonnet
She was wearing a red handkerchief around her neck, a black jacket, men's boots, and an old white apron
The couple were talking quietly, and the woman had her hand on the man's chest
So in less than fifteen minutes the Ripper took Catherine into Mitre square, killed her, mutilated her horribly, and escaped - right under the noses of the police! His escape was amazing
on Saturday 29th, Kelly told her to be careful about the Whitechapel killer.
Born in Limerick, Ireland, she moved to Wales with her family when she was very young
By 1886 she was living in the East End with Joe Flemming, who wanted to marry her
He frequently visited her and gave her money
He visited her around 7.30-7.45 on the evening of Thursday, November 8th to tell her he had no work and could not give her any money
After warming her hands, Mrs Cox went out again
Around two hours later she woke up suddenly because her kitten was walking over her
Mrs Lewis was going to stay with her friends at 2 Miller's Court
He noticed that Mary owed him 29 shillings in rent, so he sent his assistant Thomas Bowyer to her room to ask for the money
Mrs Darrell did not see his face, so her impression that he was a darklooking foreigner aged over forty is not certain.
On November 12th a labourer named George Hutchinson gave the police a very good description of a man he saw with Mary Kelly at about 2 o'clock on the morning of her murder
The killer's terrible mutilation of Mary Kelly's face suggests that he knew her well
In fact, Hutchinson had known Mary about three years, so he certainly knew that she had her own room
So perhaps he decided to kill his next victim indoors and chose Mary Kelly, knowing her room was safe.
It began 'Dear Boss' and there was a postscript which included the sentence 'What a pretty necklace I gave her'
The old woman opened her purse and gave him a few coins
Mme Magloire trembled, open-mouthed with fear, while Mile Baptistine rose from her seat with alarm
At that time he was looking after his sister, whose husband had died, and her seven children
Early the next morning, while the bishop was studying the flowers in his garden, Mme Magloire ran out of the house with a look of alarm on her face.
'You have two very pretty children, Madame,' a voice said from close beside her.
The woman looked round and saw a young woman with a child sleeping peacefully in her arms
She did not smile, and lines of sadness ran down the side of her pale cheeks
Her clothes were old and dirty, and she wore a tight, plain cap over her beautiful blonde hair.
'When the young woman had sat down next to her, the red-haired woman introduced herself
'I used to work in Paris, but my husband died and I lost my job.' She could not tell Mme Thenardier the truth, which was that she had been made pregnant by a young man who had then abandoned her
I had to carry her and she's fallen asleep.' As she spoke these words, she gave her daughter a loving kiss, which woke her up
The child's eyes were as wide and blue as her mother's
With a little laugh, she jumped off her mother's lap and ran to play with the two girls on the swing.
'Euphrasie - but I call her Cosette
'I can't take her with me,' Fantine continued
As soon as I find a job, I'll come and fetch her
'Then we agree to look after her for you,' he said.
The next morning, Fantine kissed her daughter goodbye and left for Montreuil, crying as if her heart would break.
The couple dressed Cosette in rags and gave her very little food, which they made her eat from a wooden bowl under the table
The dog and the cat, who ate with her, were her only companions.
Fantine, meanwhile, found work in Montreuil and asked for news of her daughter every month
At the end of the year, however, Thenardier was not happy with just seven francs a month; he demanded twelve and Fantine paid without protest, happy that her daughter was being well cared for.
They made her get up before dawn every day and do all the dirty jobs around the house, while Eponine and Azelma wore pretty clothes and played with dolls
Misery had made her ugly and only her beautiful blue eyes remained.
She forgot many of her problems, and dreamt only of Cosette and her plans for the future
But her happiness did not last long
Although she was careful to say nothing about her daughter to anyone, other women at the factory soon discovered her secret
An unmarried woman with a child was a terrible thing in those days, and Fantine lost her job
She tried to find work as a servant, but no one would employ her
By the following winter, her debts had increased
The Thenardiers wrote her a frightening letter in which they told her that Cosette had no clothes, and that they needed ten francs immediately to buy her a new dress
Fantine, who did not have ten francs, but who was afraid that her daughter would freeze to death, went to the barber's shop
She took out her comb and let her blonde hair fall down to her waist.
After selling her hair to the barber, Fantine was able to buy a woollen dress, which she sent to the Thenardiers
Forgetting her troubles for a moment, she smiled at the dentist's humorous efforts to sell the people of Montreuil false teeth.
Suddenly the dentist saw her.
'My hair will grow again,' she thought, 'but teeth would be gone forever.' But then she thought about her daughter, and her own appearance suddenly seemed unimportant
That evening, she visited the dentist at the inn where he was staying, and allowed him to remove her teeth.
She sat on her bed, cold and shivering, and looked at the two coins shining on the table
Fantine earned less and less money from her sewing, and the Thenardiers demanded more and more money to look after Cosette
What could she do? She had sold her hair and her teeth; what else could she sell? And then she decided that she had no other choice: she would have to sell herself.
One winter's evening, a toothless woman with a grey face and flowers in her hair was arrested for attacking a man in the street
She was taken to the police station, where Inspector Javert, the chief of police, sent her to prison for six months.
Javert.' The woman fell to her knees
If I don't pay, my little girl will lose her home and be thrown out on to the streets
Javert listened to her coldly, then ordered a policeman to take her away
While the policeman was trying to drag her to her feet, however, a voice from the shadows said, 'One moment please.'
And now I've just seen her spit at you, the mayor of our town
You should arrest him, not her.'
The man who had just saved her from prison was also the man who had caused all her troubles
Madeleine said to her
Madeleine with tears in her eyes
After all her pain and suffering she had, for the first time in her life, found kindness in another human being
Without a word, she fell to her knees and kissed the back of M
Months of poverty and misery had made her ill, and she soon became so weak that she was unable to leave her bed.
Madeleine when he visited her.
'Very soon,' he would reply, and her pale face would light up with joy.
She had a high fever, and was coughing badly, but she still had only one thing on her mind.
'Very soon,' he assured her.
He sat by her bed for an hour and then, having told the nurses to look after her, he returned to his home
'How is she?' he asked the nurse, who was watching her as she slept.
She's looking forward to seeing her child.'
'Then what can we say to her when she wakes up?' The nurse looked suddenly worried
'It will destroy her if she doesn't see her child now, after you promised to bring her.'
She was breathing with great difficulty, but her face looked peaceful and calm
Suddenly, she opened her eyes and saw M
Madeleine said gently, taking her hand
'You're too weak to see her at the moment
Fantine smiled, and began to talk dreamily about her future life with her daughter, and how happy they would be together
But suddenly her face froze, and she stared with horror at the door
Madeleine, who was holding her hand, turned and saw Inspector Javert
Fantine, thinking that the inspector had come for her, gripped M
Madeleine's hand tightly and begged him to protect her.
Madeleine tried to calm her
where's my little Cosette? I want to see her
'Be quiet, you dirty prostitute,' Javert interrupted her angrily
She looked as if she was going to speak, but no words came from her lips
Instead, with a small sigh, she fell back against her pillow and lay completely still.
'You've killed her!' he cried angrily, turning to Javert with a fierce look in his eyes.
He turned again to Fantine and looked for one last time at her sad, pale face and empty, blue eyes
Bending down, he closed her eyes and pressed his lips against her forehead
While guests and visitors ate and drank noisily, Cosette - now eight years old - sat in her usual place under the kitchen table
Miserably, she picked up a large, empty bucket that was almost as big as she was, and was walking with it to the door when Madame Thenardier stopped her.
Cosette took the coin, put it carefully in her pocket and left
She was cold and hungry as she dragged the bucket behind her along the crowded street, but she could not resist stopping in front of one of the stalls
It was like a palace to her, with its bright lights, shining glass and pretty objects
Cosette gazed at the doll for several minutes but, remembering her job, she sighed and continued on her way
She had soon left the colourful lights and the happy laughter of the village behind her, and was running down the hill into the frightening darkness of the wood
Finding the stream, she bent forward and began to till her bucket
She did not notice the coin that Mme Thenardier had given her for the bread fall out of her pocket into the water
When the bucket was full, she gripped the handle with her tiny, frozen hands and tried to pull it back up the hill
She was almost at the end of her strength, and she was still not out of the wood
Suddenly, an enormous hand reached down from the sky and took the bucket of water from her
Looking up, Cosette saw a huge, white-haired man standing next to her
'This is a very heavy bucket for such a small child,' he said gently, looking down at her from his great height.
She let him carry the bucket up the hill and, as they walked back towards the village, she told him everything about her life with the Thenardiers
The old man listened with great interest, and asked her many questions.
The old man gave her the bucket, and they entered the inn together.
He sat down and Cosette, after serving him some wine, returned to her place under the table
But before she could start her knitting, she heard Mme Thenardier's angry voice demanding, 'Where's the bread I told you to get?'
Cosette felt in her pocket and suddenly went pale
Cosette said nothing, speechless with fear as the woman raised her arm to hit her
But before she could deliver the blow the old man, who had seen everything, interrupted her.
Mme Thenardier took the coin the old man held towards her and walked away.
Cosette, who had returned to her place under the table, looked up from her knitting and watched them sadly
She turned her back on the room and began to play with it, hoping that no one could see what she was doing
'She's touched it with her dirty hands!' Then, hearing Cosette crying, she turned to the little girl and shouted, 'Stop that noise!'
'Just a minute,' her husband said
When Cosette came downstairs, the old man gave her new clothes to wear: a black woollen dress, black stockings, scarf and shoes
Valjean laid Cosette on the bed without waking her
He lit a candle and sat by the bed, watching her while she slept
He felt sad that Fantine had not lived to see her child again, but happy that he had been able to rescue her child from the terrible Thenardiers
He bent and kissed the sleeping child's forehead just as, nine months earlier, he had kissed her mother's.
The next morning, Cosette opened her eyes and immediately started to get out of bed.
Then, as her eyes adjusted to the light, she saw the kind old face of Jean Valjean looking down at her, and she relaxed.
She hugged her doll and asked Valjean hundreds of questions
Now, he discovered the greatest joy he had ever known by just standing beside her bed and looking at her innocent, trusting little face
Paying her six months in advance, he told her that he was a ruined Spanish gentleman, and that the little girl was his granddaughter.
Valjean gave Cosette lessons in reading and writing, and spent hours watching her as she dressed and undressed her doll
He went back upstairs for Cosette, who was waiting for him patiently, holding her doll.
Valjean picked her up and ran with her through a confusing system of alleys until he came to a bridge
Leblanc, because of his white hair, and the girl Mile Lanoire, because of her black dress,' his friend replied.
She had soft brown hair, pale, smooth skin, deep blue eyes and a lovely smile that lit up her face like sunshine.
For the next few days he passed the bench in the Gardens without looking at her
He walked around slowly, stopping to look at the ducks on the lake, then casually approached the bench where Mile Lanoire and her father were sitting
She was talking quietly to her father, and Marius could hear the soft, exciting murmur of her voice
He returned the next morning and sat on a bench all day, pretending to read a book, not daring to go near the bench where the girl and her father were sitting
He gazed after her until she had disappeared from sight, then rose to his feet and walked around, laughing and talking to himself
Finally he left the Gardens in the mad hope of seeing her in the street, but instead he met Enjolras, who invited him to a meal.
He avoided walking directly in front of the bench, partly from shyness, partly because he did not want to attract her father's attention
Sometimes he stood for half an hour in a place where her father could not see him, looking at her and enjoying the small, secret smiles she sent him.
His desire for the girl was growing daily, and he dreamt of her every night
'I can feel her whole soul in it!' he told himself
As well as the joy of seeing her in the Gardens, he now had the pleasure of following her home
'It gave me so much happiness just to look at her, and now, through my stupidity, I've lost even that.'
She looked cold and ill, and when she spoke, Marius saw that she had lost several of her teeth
Picking up a pen that lay on the table, she wrote on a piece of paper, Be careful! The police are coming! She showed Marius her work and then, changing the subject quickly, for no reason at all, she gazed into his eyes and said shyly, 'Do you know, M
He moved away from the girl's touch and said, 'I think, Mademoiselle, that I have something belonging to you.' He handed her the parcel of letters.
She clapped her hands and cried, 'We've been looking for that everywhere! How did you know they were mine? Of course, the handwriting
Slamming the door shut behind her she cried victoriously, 'He's coming!'
She put her fist through the glass and ran to her bed, crying because her arm was covered in blood.
'Excellent,' her father smiled, tearing a piece off his shirt and using it as a bandage
'They may have to cut off her arm.'
The daughter, taking her father's words seriously, began to scream with fear
Leblanc and 'Ursula' tried to comfort her, Jondrette approached his wife and said in a whisper, 'Take a good look at that man.'
She did not reply but stood thoughtfully looking at him, seeming to have lost all her earlier confidence
Marius,' she said at last, a faint light in her sad eyes, 'you seem upset
Marius considered her offer, then had an idea
Moving closer to her, he said, 'Do you know the address of those people who've just left your room?'
'Is that what you want?' she said, a disappointed look on her face.
She left immediately, closing the door behind her.
'Why should I? I've never seen her'
But Jondrette bent down and whispered something in her ear
Straightening up, he said, 'Now do you recognize her?'
'Her?' said the woman, her voice filled with sudden hatred
'Tomorrow you'll have fur boots!' her father called out after her.
Her sister has taken her to hospital, but they'll be back soon.'
She picked up the piece of paper and handed it to her husband, who read it quickly.
Still wearing the same rags, with the same bold look in her eyes and the same rough voice, she had somehow become more beautiful
She stared at Marius with a look of pleasure on her pale face, and for some moments seemed unable to speak.
She bit her lip and hesitated, as if trying to make up her mind about something
Marius jumped up and took her by the hand.
All he had in the world was the five-franc piece he intended to give her father in prison
He pushed it into her hand, but she opened her fingers and let the coin fall to the ground
She looked at him with a mixture of disappointment and sadness in her eyes.
She listened at the window for a minute, then ran up to her bedroom, opened the window and looked out
He told her not to worry, but she noticed an anxious look in his eyes
She had never read anything like this before, and it affected her deeply.
Her heart on fire, she took the notebook upstairs to her bedroom and read every word again
As she read the notebook, she knew in her heart that he was the author of these beautiful, romantic words
Finally, she kissed the book, held it to her heart and waited for the evening, when she knew that something special was going to occur.
Cosette spent a long time in front of the mirror, making her hair look beautiful and deciding which dress to wear
She looked round and jumped to her feet.
Marius caught her and held her tightly in his arms without realizing what he was doing, lost in a mist of love
Cosette, feeling her body close to his, took his hand and pressed it against her heart
Aware of the shape of the notebook under her dress, he said, 'So, you've read my notebook
Then, as if by magic, her lips were next to his and they were kissing
When everything had been said, she laid her head on his shoulder and asked, 'What's your name?'
One beautiful, starry evening, Marius found Cosette sitting unhappily in her garden.
'What's the matter?' he asked, sitting next to her on the bench.
She looked up at him, her pale face lined with misery.
Marius turned his back to her and said, 'Then I shall have to go away.'
Marius turned and was surprised to see her smiling.
I wear a cheap hat, my jacket has lost half its buttons and there are holes in my boots.' He turned away from her and stood with his face pressed to the trunk of a tree, almost ready to faint
He fell on his knees in front of her and pressed her hand to his lips.
'Why not?' Cosette said, drying her tears
'What does her father do?'
'I love her so much
Please allow me to marry her!'
Marius told his grandfather all about Cosette and how much he loved her
Have fun with the girl, but don't marry her
Make her your lover but not your wife.'
He called her name again and again until, exhausted, he sat down on the stone steps
The second killed a deaf old woman who was trying to shut her window.
One of these children was Eponine, who had dressed like a boy so that no one would tell her to go home
Then, noticing the pool of blood on the ground behind her, cried, 'You're wounded! I'll carry you to the inn
She showed him the bullet hole in her hand.
'A soldier was going to shoot you,' she said, her voice no more than a whisper
Marius sat next to her
She rested her head on his knee and said without looking at him, 'Oh, what happiness
She pressed her hand to her chest, from which blood was pouring like dark wine
She took hold of Marius's hand with her wounded hand and, without seeming to feel the pain, guided it to her pocket, from which he took the letter.
She let her head fall back on his knees
Just as Marius thought that her sad soul had finally left her body, she slowly opened her eyes, and said in a voice so sweet that it seemed already to come from another world, 'You know, M
With those words, she closed her eyes for the last time and died.
Marius kissed her pale forehead and laid her gently on the ground
She was going with her father to England, and his grandfather had refused to give his permission for him to marry
Nothing had changed, and he decided that he had one last duty to perform: he must send Cosette a final message and tell her of his death
Cosette had brought her letter case and blotter with her, Valjean his box of child's clothing and the old National Guard uniform which all respectable men possessed, and which he had worn under a previous identity.
Cosette, however, did not leave her bedroom the next day, and Jean Valjean had dinner alone
In her unhappy state of mind, Cosette had forgotten to remove the page that she had used to blot the letter she had written to Marius
If he kept the letter in his pocket, Cosette would never know what had happened to the other man, and life with her would continue the same as before
He gave his neighbour, a pretty woman, a bunch of flowers, which greatly annoyed her husband.
Most of all, however, he thought about Cosette, and how he could find her again.
'You will have her,' the old man repeated
While you've been ill, she's spent her time crying and making bandages for you
I know all about her
I knew you were angry with me, and I thought, "What can I do to make him love me?" Then I thought, "I can give him Cosette." I wanted to invite her to see you, but the doctor warned me that you would probably get too excited
When can I see her?'
'You can see her tomorrow.'
'All right, I'll fetch her today
Standing beside her on the doorstep was a white-haired man with a strangely nervous smile.
Having been a mayor, he knew how to solve an awkward problem: the question of Cosette's real family He told everybody that he was not her father, but her guardian
Valjean, as her guardian, gave Cosette a large amount of money - half a million francs - but did not tell her that the money was his
He told her that the money came from a man who preferred to remain unknown
The only thing they discovered was that Mme Thenardier had died, and that her husband had escaped from prison and disappeared with his surviving daughter, Azelma.
It was the happiest night of Cosette's life, spoilt only by one thing: the fact that her guardian - whom she still thought of as her father - went home before the feast had started, saying that he felt ill
She had Marius, and she would be happy with him for the rest of her life!
He remembered the little girl he had rescued from the Thenardiers ten years earlier, and felt sad that he was no longer the most important man in her life
Another man was the centre of her universe
He was proud of having helped to bring her happiness with Marius, but another thing troubled his soul: the fact that nobody, not even Cosette, knew the truth about him
'But you must promise not to tell her!' Valjean interrupted
But I think it would be better if you stopped seeing her.'
But at the door he half-turned and said, 'Monsieur, if you will permit me, I would like to come and see her
Marius kept his promise about not telling Cosette, and Valjean visited her every evening in a small room on the ground floor
At first, Cosette could not understand why Valjean refused to meet her upstairs
When he refused to kiss her cheek, she began to feel unhappy, afraid that she had done something to offend him
She pressed his hands in hers and held them to her lips.
'You mustn't call me "father" any more,' he told her
As 'Monsieur Jean', he gradually became a different person to her, and she began not to depend on him for her happiness.
One evening in April, he called at the usual time but was told that Cosette had gone out with her husband
He persuaded Cosette, therefore, not to use any of the money her guardian had given her, and to live on the money that he had started to earn as a lawyer
She could not understand why her father, as she still thought of Valjean, had stopped visiting her
She still loved him in her heart
But she loved her husband even more, and she gradually became used to not depending on the old man for her happiness.
When Thenardier had left, unable to believe his good fortune, Marius ran to find Cosette and told her everything immediately.
Jean Valjean listened as she described the view from the room that would be his, the beauty of the garden, the singing of the birds, but he was listening more to the music of her voice than to the meaning of her words
Her mother was fond of her; and her grandmother doted on her still more
This good woman had a little red riding hood made for her
It suited the girl so extremely well that everybody called her Little Red Riding Hood.
One day her mother made some cakes and said to her, "Go, my dear, and see how your grandmother is doing, because she has been very ill
Take her a cake, and this little pot of butter."
Little Red Riding Hood set out immediately to go to her grandmother, who lived in another village.
As she was going through the wood, she met with a wolf, who had a very great mind to eat her up, but he dared not, because of some woodcutters working nearby in the forest
He asked her where she was going
The poor child, who did not know that it was dangerous to stay and talk to a wolf, said to him, "I am going to see my grandmother and carry her a cake and a little pot of butter from my mother."
"Well," said the wolf, "and I'll go and see her too
"Your grandchild, Little Red Riding Hood," replied the wolf, counterfeiting her voice; "who has brought you a cake and a little pot of butter sent you by mother."
The wolf pulled the bobbin, and the door opened, and then he immediately fell upon the good woman and ate her up in a moment, for it been more than three days since he had eaten
Little Red Riding Hood, hearing the big voice of the wolf, was at first afraid; but believing her grandmother had a cold and was hoarse, answered, "It is your grandchild Little Red Riding Hood, who has brought you a cake and a little pot of butter mother sends you."
The wolf cried out to her, softening his voice as much as he could, "Pull the bobbin, and the latch will go up."
The wolf said to her, hiding himself under the bedclothes, "Put the cake and the little pot of butter upon the stool, and come get into bed with me."
Little Red Riding Hood took off her clothes and got into bed
She was greatly amazed to see how her grandmother looked in her nightclothes, and said to her, "Grandmother, what big arms you have!"
And, saying these words, this wicked wolf fell upon Little Red Riding Hood, and ate her all up.
It is a woman, and even in the dark and the fog I recognise her
Her long blonde hair is beautiful, and her kind, friendly, blue eyes are perfect
Yes, I know her! And the thought is so strong that I smile despite the pain in the back of my head.
But what is her name? I pull the last item from my pocket
I am sure that I know her, but I still do not remember why
Is she my wife? My girlfriend? I think that she is, and I suddenly feel afraid for her
I remember Catherine's face, but she is not smiling like she is in the picture, and her blue eyes look scared and desperate
I try to remember the image, and I see that there is a piece of cloth in her mouth so that she cannot speak and that she is tied to a large grey stone by thick white ropes.
I only know that I must find her, that I must help her.
Is there somebody in the fog? Somebody who has Catherine? Someone who wants to hurt her, who wants to kill her?
She has a black uniform, which she always wears at work in the restaurant, and on the uniform is a badge with her name
And I remember that after I eat, I wait for her in the car park until she finishes work, and she is surprised to see me there
"I just want Catherine," I say, but I can see the hate in the man's eyes, and I know that the only thing I can do now is run to the stone where I know she is tied and try to escape into the fog with her.
"Good for her."
I hate her
What? Divorce her? That's impossible..
He tries to picture Emily: her eyes are so loving, her laugh so light and pretty
She needs to come now, he knows, but he cannot shout for her
No, it is her idea to go on a boat
I just need to wait for her like a good husband, he thinks.
He thinks that with her clothes and her coat on she will be too heavy and that the cold grey water of the loch will pull her down
All he has to do is make her hold it for a second
Perhaps, quickly wrap the straps around her hands
And in her arms she has the heavy wax coat
And the attendant ignores Oliver but returns her smile
No more listening to that awful laugh, no more looking at her boring face
And, perhaps more importantly, no more sharing his bank account with her.
"Oh yes, that would be very nice!" She smiles, but in the half-light Oliver thinks he sees something strange in her expression.
She has an oar in her hands, and she is reaching it out to him.
"Yes, closer! Help me!" he shouts, and it is then that he sees the strange expression on her face again
As she takes her coat off, Branwell watches her
"Right," he says, and tries to smile to relax her, "what's all this about, then? The officer at the front desk says you need to speak to someone."
"I do," she says, and her voice is thin and tense.
She puts her hands on the table, and he sees that her red fingernails are chipped and bitten
"Not now, no," she says, and she picks up her handbag
I can get you a tea if you like," but she shakes her head and puts the bag at her feet
Again she waits, and again Branwell thinks that he sees something in her deep-green eyes.
She pauses for a second, and he sees her hands shake
"Easily," she says, but again she pauses, and Branwell sees her turn quickly to look over her shoulder
She looks over her shoulder again quickly and automatically as if she does it a hundred times a day
He sees that expression in her eyes again
She nods and bites her red fingernails for a moment
"Oh I know," she says, and he sees that something in her deep-green eyes, and he thinks that he knows what it is now
"I know, Detective, because I am that driver." Then there is only the sound of her crying to fill the cold interview room, and Branwell sits down again and picks up his pen and notepad
"I think you should tell me everything," he says, and he can see clearly now the guilt that fills her deep-green eyes
He does not feel any sympathy for her
No, he cannot feel any sympathy for her, but maybe now she can find some rest
"Do you have her confession?" the figure says.
Sure, there are one or two bigger than her, but none of them has her romance or her luxury," Mrs Carolina Heath says as they enter the dining room.
She is a quiet young thing, and beautiful too, and Carolina likes to have beautiful things around her, so she is more than happy to talk for both of them.
"Oh, but can I trust you three to look after Eleanor? This is her first night, and her first cruise
Her long blonde hair is elegant and her face full of classical beauty
At the table Edward offers Eleanor a chair, and Michael passes her a glass of champagne.
Eleanor smiles shyly and moves the elegant white silk scarf that lies around her neck above her black dress
"What, and he kills her?"
Then she goes for her run and makes sure that many people see her."
"Normally, yes," says Eleanor, and all three men notice how her smile fades a little, "but she has a plan for that
They try to stop her, but she runs into the burning building
No one follows her
And so she goes to her husband as the flames spread over his body, and she watches
And while she watches, she lets the flames touch her, too
They reach out, and they burn her back and her neck and her hair
"My God," says Edward, "she lets the flames burn her."
She adjusts the white scarf around her neck.
And as Eleanor and Edward move away to the dance floor, Peter and Michael see her adjust the scarf around her neck one last time
And in the low, romantic light of the ballroom they both think they see something strange on her back and neck
But only sometimes, because the defendant and the rest of her family, the Lee family, are wild, and he does not want to make her, or them, angry
On Wednesday the fifth of January Mrs Dawson went to the house of her sister, the defendant, Miss Lee
Mrs Dawson was bleeding from her nose and mouth; she also had marks on her face
She says her husband, the deceased Mr Dawson, hit her there several times
You are here because when Miss Lee saw her younger sister, she took a pair of scissors from her kitchen table, said something to her sister and left the house
Both times she had the scissors with her, and both times witnesses testified that she said 'I will kill him.'
They say this is the case because Miss Lee was not in a sane state of mind when she killed Mr Dawson; they say that this crime was in defence of her sister
They say this is premeditated murder because for half an hour Miss Lee looked for Mr Dawson; they also say she made her intention clear on three different occasions
What? Oh, who cares about her? She'll probably like prison, the crazy cow: more people for her to hurt
"Jesus," Nick says before he can stop himself, and the girl sees him and closes the mobile phone in her hand.
Nick looks at her for a second and then turns and runs back to the door.
She stands near to him, and he can see the tears in her eyes and the sad expression on her face, but this time he knows it is not real.
Your own sister? You wanted her to kill your husband."
"Look," she says, her voice different now, "I saw you looking at me yesterday
For a second she is silent, but then she speaks again, though this time her voice is hard and angry
And he smiles at her because he thinks this expression suits her best
But you know that the noise was not her
You know that Sophie is sleeping in her usual position at the top of the stairs and that she never makes a noise in the night, and you wish, for the first time, that you also had a dog
Then you see Sophie, in her normal place at the top of the stairs, and you see how near the burglar is
But anyway, why think about it? Just drive; get a few more miles from the town, and from her.
"Dead? No, no it can't be her!"
He remembers buying her a drink and then another and another
God, he wishes he could remember last night: not just the girl's expression when he hit her, but everything.
Jesus, is this it? Did he really do something to that girl? More than hit her once? Did he do what they said on the radio? Was she dead?
He remembers hitting the girl, he remembers her shouting at him and he remembers telling her to get out.
"I hope you die and rot in the desert!" she shouted, blood still on her face
So she stands, and she looks around at her fellow commuters and other passengers
Twenty tired faces: some talking, but most are silent and waiting like her.
It is seven thirty-six: her train should be here in two minutes.
Sarah thinks about her cosy sofa and the Chinese takeaway she will eat while watching TV
The train speeds out of the tunnel, and she enjoys the feeling of the wind in her dark brown hair
As it stops, she sees her reflection in the mirror of the carriage.
She looks around the carriage: there are only eight other people there: a young couple holding hands and talking quietly on the seat opposite her; two businessmen a few seats to her right; an old lady two seats to her left; a mother and son at the far end of the carriage
The train starts, and she shakes her head.
You are an idiot, she tells herself and pulls a book out of her bag
The man in the corner is probably just a normal guy and not some horrible character from one of her thrillers.
For ten minutes she reads her crime novel
The old woman two seats away from her does not look happy and she moves to sit in the seat next to Sarah.
But she does not want to listen, and she takes her MP3 player from her bag and puts her headphones in.
She closes her eyes and thinks about her sofa, her Chinese take-away and her bed
But she is exhausted, and her head begins to drop, and she feels herself falling asleep
And she dreams about dark tunnels and strange men watching her.
Then she feels a sharp pain in her arm, and she almost screams.
She looks to see what the pain is and pulls her headphones from her ears.
"I'm sorry, dear," the old woman says, and Sarah sees that the woman's cloth bag is touching her arm
Sarah nods and is about to put her headphones back in her ears when she feels someone watching her, and she looks at the corner of the carriage.
The strange man, the man who looks like the evil character from her thriller; his eyes are open now.
And they are watching her.
She feels a cold shiver move over her body, and suddenly she thinks that she feels a little ill.
Is he watching her? She looks again and, yes, his hood is still covering his face, but she is sure that his eyes are focused on her.
And the next station is North Acton, her station.
No one gets off apart from her, she is sure.
Her arm hurts, so she takes her jacket off, and in the mirror she can see a small drop of blood on her skin.
And the old woman takes a long, thin knitting needle from her bag, and Sarah remembers what the kid said on the tube...
Sala and her friend Niki pushed past the people who had gathered in the rain outside the meat-growing laboratory
Sala was so busy staring that she didn't look where she was going, and stepped into water up to her ankles.
Sala shook her head
She could say with her hand on her heart that this year - her eighteenth - had been the best so far
They reached the simulator center, and Sala lifted her wrist to touch a gray screen by the door
The little chip under her skin lit up for a second, showing how many energy units she had left
When she saw him over by the taste-pot machine, her heart jumped
He smiled and kissed her, then gave her a taste-pot with a spoon: "I got your favorite
"Fantastic," said Sala, taking off her wet boots
Then, after her final spoonful, Sala reached for her bag.
One year ago, on March 15, 2087, she'd been standing in Space 29 in one of her favorite illusions
She'd turned around quickly and seen a boy: about her age but a little taller, with black hair and dark, smiling eyes..
Sala had soon found out that he lived near her, in an earth apartment
He loved the same ultranet games and story-streams as her, and the same illusions in the simulator
Best of all, he made her laugh
By the time they left the simulator, she'd fallen in love - and luckily for her, so had Cham.
Sala looked at Cham, and engaged her virtual interface.
"Go on," Cham encouraged her.
Sala looked up at her interface
Cham smiled at her
She wrapped her arms around him and buried her face in his neck
She'd made her own garden on the roof of their apartment, and she was always up there
The rest of her family jokingly called it her "Real Space."
Sala and Cham stepped off the walkway near their apartment blocks, and as they did so, someone knocked Sala's elbow, then held her arm for a second.
She had a hat pulled low over her face, so it was partly hidden, but Sala could just see her green eyes.
It carried her away rapidly, and in no time at all, she'd disappeared.
"No idea." Sala stared down at the little package in her hand
Sala put her arms around him and kissed him.
Cham kissed her, and before Sala could say anything else, he turned and ran out into the rain.
She turned and ran down the street to her apartment block, and soon she was in the dry and rushing upward in the elevator
Sala walked out, and the screen on the door of her apartment recognized her, and let her in.
It had taken years for Gran to make her garden because it was so difficult to find soil or plants, but she had made some soil with rotten vegetables and fruit, and slowly found bits and pieces here and there
Sala could see from her face that it hurt her to move like that
Sala greeted her, then held out her hand
Sala nodded, giving her the small plastic package
Gran looked down at the strange gift, and to Sala's surprise, her face went deathly pale
"Gran! Are you OK?" Sala put an arm around her, and made her sit down on the little bench that looked over the city.
She broke it down the middle, and the little dried fruit fell out into her hand.
I've always believed that he died in the outside world, in the contamination." She rolled the fruit between her fingers
But..." She shook her head sadly
"Did the woman say how you could contact her?"
She got up and returned to her tomato plants, taking off the dead and dying leaves from the bottom of each one
"So, tell me about your day," she said, over her shoulder
"I know." Sala thought of Cham's face when he left her, and felt uneasy
If we're ever free of these silly things." She tapped her wrist.
Gran had a chip buried under her skin like everyone else, but she wore a bracelet to hide it as a small way of protesting about the government's tight control over everyone.
Back inside the apartment, Sala found her nine-year-old brother Apat playing games on the ultranet in his room.
Sala went to her own tiny room, and played her ultranet messages
Had he been odd with her? She wasn't sure
The conversation with Gran had gotten her thinking.
A call came in on Sala's ultranet connection, and her heart jumped.
His face on her virtual interface looked worried
He reached out for her hand
"It doesn't sound like that." Sala banged her drink down
She managed not to say anything in front of her little brother, but Gran could see at once that she was upset.
It was true, her family was very lucky, and she sometimes forgot that
That was how Sala and her family were able to live in their rooftop apartment.
unless..." She waved her hand
Sala went back down to her room and sent Cham a message.
Sala bit her lip anxiously
What if he wouldn't forgive her? She had really shouted at him, and now she felt awful
She sat on the edge of her bed, worrying
The mystery woman: Who was she? How did she know about Gran? She wondered when she would see her again...
Forgetting about the woman, she jumped to her feet and rushed out
she thinks maybe it came from her long-lost brother
"From her brother?" Cham paused for a second, then laughed
Cham had so many things to consider, far more than her.
He asked her gently, but his words still came as a shock
But then she thought of her Gran, and what she'd said about Cham's situation
"Tomorrow afternoon," Sala told her.
Sala looked at her friend
But whenever she thought about lying in a pod for months, her stomach seemed to turn over and over - in spite of what she'd told Cham.
They had almost reached Sala's exit, so she gathered her things together and said goodbye to Niki
But as she stepped off the walkway, she felt a hand touching her back.
It was the woman who had given her the fruit.
The following afternoon, as Sala walked up and down in her little room, waiting to go with Cham for their pod experience, she had a strange feeling in her stomach
"Maybe there'll be more than dolphins." Sala let her mind go wild
Sala and Cham each went into a little room and Sala put on her suit, made a neat pile of her clothes, and carried them out to Zee
You'll see her in the pod," remarked Zee.
Zee guided Sala into her pod; the door closed, and she could feel the cool metal attachments touching her face and her body suit
A gentle wave splashed her face
She licked her lips and tasted salt
Above her, the sky was a perfect, cloudless blue
Cautiously, she tried moving her arms and legs, and found that it came naturally
Wheeee! A loud, clear whistle, right by her ear
Sala turned her head, and gasped
It opened its mouth, and Sala felt sure it was greeting her.
He was swimming toward her with a dolphin on either side of him.
Sala rolled onto her back and lay floating, staring up at the sky
Then the biggest dolphin moved toward Sala and pushed her with its nose
She tried to move her arms, but they were trapped
She wanted to fight, or run, but she couldn't lift her legs.
"Hey, Sala," said Zee, her voice soft and calm
The attachments came off and she walked out of the pod, her knees trembling
A wave of shock hit her
She buried her face in her hands, and burst into tears.
Fifteen minutes later, Sala was dressed in her own clothes again, and was sitting next to Cham near the changing rooms
Cham laughed, and then looked at her anxiously
The big dolphin had only touched her gently, and looked into her eyes
They were almost home when Cham turned to her.
They'd never had to make a big decision like this before, and she wished with all her heart that he wasn't making her choose
It was a delicious dinner - Mom had brought home some top-quality meat from the laboratory, and Gran had added some vegetables from her garden
Gran said nothing more, but her eyes were shining
She had to consider Cham's future, not just her own
The questions went around and around in her head
At last, she knew she couldn't put off her decision any longer, and when she'd finished her studies on the day after the pod experience, she invited Cham to her apartment.
"I thought so." He played with her fingers, matching them against his
Sala bit her lip
But then she opened her mouth and the words just came out
"I love that you're so hopeful." Cham drew her close, and kissed her
Sala closed her eyes and kissed him back
Niki shook her head
"I'm counting the weeks until I can sign up," Niki told her
All the reasons she'd given to Cham ran through her mind, but how could she explain them to Niki? It was really complicated.
Feeling warm and comfortable and sleepy, she thought of Cham, holding her in the Real Space
With the story-stream still playing, her eyes slowly began to shut.
She was asleep when her ultranet began to beep
Maybe it's part of the story, she thought sleepily - but then a light started flashing, and she opened her eyes.
Sala splashed some cold water on her face to wake herself up, and then hurried to the simulator center
Cham sent her another message while she was on her way to say that he was in Space 46, and when she went in, he'd already chosen an illusion
But I'd really miss you - and so would your family..." She bit her lip.
She sat down and hugged her knees.
Then he came and sat next to her
"Like I said, I don't know what else to do." Then he turned to her
She rested her head on her knees and let the tears flow.
As she walked home, loneliness hit her
Self-pity rose like a wave inside her.
"Shhh!" In one quick, smooth movement, the woman pushed the note between Sala's fingers, nodded at her, and then set off rapidly toward the walkway
But Sala wasn't going to let her disappear this time
She rushed after the woman and caught her arm, holding it tightly.
Then she raced up to her apartment and arrived breathless
Then she sat down and covered her face with her hands
Then realization crossed her face
"What?" said Mom, putting down her cup of tea
"No." Mom shook her head
Sala went up to her room and sent a message to Cham: "Need to talk to you
Cham's face appeared on her virtual interface almost at once
you're still going to do this?" she demanded, waving her hand toward the pod center.
Sala bit her lip
Sala shook her head
"I'd like her to come with me."
She waited there on the edge of her seat, anxious and impatient, as time passed
There was a grand ancient building on the banks of a river behind her.
The hologram was pulling at her
It was like a tunnel, swallowing her up.
Was that it? Decision made? No more discussion? Cham hadn't even looked at her
She lifted her hand
The screen was red, but as her skin touched it, it changed to orange, and then green
Then Cham would be torn away from her for two long years.
Sala couldn't believe how much her life was suddenly changing, but she didn't try to discuss it with Cham
She decided to go for a run at the energy center; maybe it would cheer her up
She arrived early and didn't have to wait in line, so in a few minutes, she was stretching her legs and then running mechanically, left-foot right-foot, on the machine.
She had been there for about thirty minutes when a woman began running on the machine next to her
Sala didn't look at her at first, but when the woman spoke, she recognized her voice at once.
Sala jumped, and began to turn her head.
Instead, she spent hours sitting on her bench in the Real Space, looking out over the city with a distant expression
Or she would suddenly tell them all one of her memories: of growing up with Eston or their suffering during the Oil Wars.
After another ten minutes, the woman stepped off her machine
Love you." He would forgive her..
Determined not to lose sight of her guide, Sala pushed her way forward
The woman wore a bright yellow bag on her back, so at least she was easy enough to follow, but she walked rapidly, and Sala was soon breathless.
Sala felt fear catch hold of her
Strange faces surrounded her; everyone looked miserable and gray
If the woman was leading her into a trap, she now had no way of contacting anyone.
Her guide was bending down, playing with her boot; and then she signaled with her fingers, inviting Sala on
Sala felt like running away, but something made her keep going
In one corner, the woman was taking the yellow hag off her back
She looked very different now that she was in her own surroundings - more friendly and unthreatening
Sala sat down on the sofa, and Wena sat next to her.
"Yes, your grandmother's brother has been trying to contact her for a long time
"Your grandmother told you how she and her brother used the fruit to play tricks on people
Sala stared at her
Wena shook her head
Sala closed her eyes
She opened her eyes, and Wena was still there, real and solid in front of her.
Sala half-wanted to rush home to tell Gran and Mom what had happened, but she didn't want to lose any of her remaining time with Cham
She was over an hour late for meeting him at the simulator center, and because her ultranet connection didn't come back on until she was almost there, she couldn't even call him or send him a message
"Sala! What happened to you?" He wrapped his arms around her
Cham kissed the top of her head
She dropped her voice
I met her again
Cham reached for her hand
Cham pulled her closer
Cham kissed her
Her secret burned fiercely inside her
To her surprise, Gran wasn't in the kitchen preparing their meal as usual
"It's been hard for her, all this business about Uncle Eston
She looked exhausted at first; but the light came back into her eyes as Sala began to talk about her meeting with Wena.
"So, Gran, what do you think?" she asked breathlessly, when she'd finished her story.
There were tears in her eyes
Gran shook her head
It took a moment for her words to have an effect.
Sala wished she could see him on her own, but she knew that time with his family was precious
Then she stepped forward, and wrapped her arms around him.
It rained constantly, but Sala didn't really care; the dark, miserable skies matched her mood
The only thing that made the time pass more quickly was her family's dream of the world outside
Sometimes she took Apat with her, though he was less enthusiastic now that Cham couldn't go with them
Apat was busy on the jumping machine, and Sala was collecting a drink from the cafe, when she heard a voice in her ear.
"Did you ask her?"
Sala raised her drink to her lips without looking at Wena
"So, you were right." Wena sounded disappointed, and Sala risked a quick look at her
"I don't think she'll change her mind."
She turned away, and before Sala could stop her, she picked up her yellow bag and disappeared through the center's doors.
Sala engaged her virtual interface and sat waiting for him.
"Sala, I don't think you should see her anymore
"But it's exciting, isn't it? I've only seen her once more
Well, please don't get involved with her."
"So soon?" Sala couldn't hide her disappointment.
and then warning her about Wena and the rebellion
It bothered her.
She brought out her paints, and, sitting in her room, started working on a picture: the green leaves of Gran's Real Space, bright and bursting with life; gray tower blocks in the background
As she worked, she wondered why Cham didn't want her to talk to Wena
Maybe he was just being protective - worried that the rebels would put her in danger
"Coming!" Sala left her room and found that Gran had just prepared some fresh juice.
She was staring out at the view with that faraway look in her eyes - that look that Sala now recognized
Gran was thinking about her brother Eston.
"Oh, yes, don't mind me." But Gran was rubbing her back, where she'd been injured years ago
Gran's words bothered her
It wasn't like Gran to make her feel uncomfortable.
The next day, Sala started to look for her
Did she dare go back to the earth apartment? What if Cham was warning her for a reason?
She set off along the busy walkway, checking her ultranet connection as she went
After an hour, her legs were aching from standing still
but curiosity was burning inside her
After looking around to check that no one was watching her, she slipped quietly down the passageway, and found the same door as before
Sala checked her ultranet connection for the millionth time
She took a deep breath and began to make her way down the stairway.
The lights had been turned off; soon she was in complete darkness, so she turned on the lights on her virtual interface to guide her
She pushed it gently and, her knees trembling, she stepped into the room
"Wena!" she called, her voice high with fear
Sala rushed into the room that she had seen on her previous visit
"So why hasn't Wena told me anything?" Sala rubbed her eyes
Mom took it and inspected it closely, turning it over and over in her hands.
But the day before her next Ultranet Talk Hour with Cham, she decided to go to the simulator center
The following morning, Sala got up early for the big event of her week: Cham's Ultranet Talk Hour.
"I met her on the walkway
"What's strange about a letter? I'm talking about the one Mom found under her bed."
Terrified, Sala rushed from her room as soon as she and Cham had finished talking.
They gave her a big welcome, and Dani made green tea
"Mmmm," said Sala, looking down at her tea.
Sala bit her lip
Completely hopeless, Sala thought as she sat finishing her green tea
Maybe his parents would be disappointed, but it was the only responsible thing to do; they'd thank her, in the end.
He didn't ask her many questions; and although his avatar was looking at her, his eyes were glassy and unseeing.
but on the other, her life with Cham had never felt more uncertain.
Dani rushed over and threw her arms around him
Even when he took her in his arms, it didn't feel quite the same.
Sala stared at her in disbelief
As Sala held her breath, his eyes slowly hardened
Sala played with the plate of food in front of her; she couldn't eat a thing.
Sala smiled at her little brother, thinking how innocent he looked
but..." Sala hung her head.
Sala shook her head
Gran held her hand and Mom put an arm around her shoulders
If he hadn't been so generous, buying her that pod experience, none of this would have happened.
Sala shook her head.
Gran put Sala's tea in front of her
Sala drank some of the hot, fruity tea, and felt her idea growing stronger
Gran gave her a long, hard stare
Cham's parents and sisters sat next to her, talking quietly, but she didn't join in
She was saving all her strength for when they saw Cham.
Then Dani's voice broke into her thoughts
Did he suspect her reasons? She desperately hoped not
"Oh! That's fantastic!" Cham got out of his chair and hugged her, burying his face in her hair
It was wonderful to feel his arms around her again
She closed her eyes, and let herself enjoy it, just for this moment
Underneath it, metal, rubber, and plastic attachments lay on the surface of her skin
Sala waited in the pod as they made the final checks, bright lights blinding her from above.
She closed her eyes
With her new strength of mind, she didn't think about the tears and hugs as she'd said goodbye
This, Gran had taught her, was what she must think of.
Sala forced her mind to go still; the voices seemed to come from far away
There was a low mechanical noise as the walls of the pod began to shut softly around her.
Then, pretending to know them well, she asked her victims rude questions in her loud American voice.
I hated my life with Mrs Van Hopper, but she paid me a little money to be her companion
Mrs Van Hopper walked in front of me on her high-heeled shoes
Her fat, heavy body swayed above her short fat legs
Mrs Van Hopper sat down at her usual table and stared at everyone in the restaurant.
'There isn't one well-known person here,' she said in her loud voice
She put down her fork and stared at him hard
How an excited look come into her small eyes.
She finished her meal as quickly as possible
She turned to me, her eyes shining: 'Go upstairs and find that letter from my nephew, Billy
De Winter was sitting next to her
De Winter stood up politely as I gave Mrs Van Hopper her letter.
But I don't suppose you remember an old woman like me?' And Mrs Van Hopper gave de Winter one of her biggest smiles.
After his moment of rudeness, de Winter listened to her politely
A waiter came up to her with a message
Mrs Van Hopper's dressmaker was waiting for her upstairs.
Mrs Van Hopper was soon busy with her dressmaker
Mrs Van Hopper called me from her bedroom
I rang up her doctor and he came round at once.
'You have flu, Madame,' the doctor told her
Monte Carlo had begun to bore her
'I work for her
I talked about my mother and her great love for my father
They say he never talks about it, never says her name
Someone has told her, I thought
I waited for her to ask more questions
Everyone says he adored her.'
People could not forget her
Somehow, she and her beauty had not died.
In my bedroom was a book that Rebecca had held in her hands
I thought of all the letters Rebecca had written to her husband
I thought I could hear her voice calling him
It was her special name for him
Mrs Van Hopper had read a letter from her daughter at breakfast
'No,' I said, 'I don't think so.' I tried not to look at her.
'We ought to have gone on the earlier train.' She looked at her watch
Her daughter sails for New York on Saturday and we're going with her
I work for her, you know that
I can't afford to leave her.'
'You tell her,' I said
'I think I'll talk to her alone,' Maxim said
'I'll tell her we are getting married very soon
Was he saying, 'I love her
I want to marry her at once.'?
How could he love me, after her? I would be a companion for him
Go in and talk to her
I'm going downstairs to arrange about her train
I don't want her to come to the wedding.'
Mrs Van Hopper was smiling, but there was no kindness in her smile
Mrs Van Hopper put out her cigarette
I was like a child on her first day at school.
Leave everything to her
There was no welcome in her dark eyes
As I thanked her, Mrs Danvers looked at me with her hard, dark eyes
I dropped my gloves on the floor and Mrs Danvers picked them up with a twisted little smile on her lips
Her dark eyes watched me as I walked slowly up the stairs towards her
Mrs Danvers spoke in a strange way, as though this was somehow important to her.
There was some colour in her pale face now
And for a moment I saw a look of hatred in her eyes.
I think that some of the young servants are afraid of her.'
'My sister, Beatrice, is coming over to lunch with her husband,' Maxim told me
'Mrs de Winter always wrote her letters in the morning-room after breakfast
The mistress of the house would come in and find me, a stranger, sitting at her desk.
Here she had chosen her guests and written letters to her friends
Beatrice and her husband had arrived
I told her about Mrs Van Hopper and how surprised she had been.
We expected a very modern sort of girl.' Beatrice laughed and I laughed with her.
'I was telling her about how we met
She stopped, her face rather red
I had said her name at last
'You never met her then?' the woman asked
Everyone loved her.'
'I remember her on the night of the Ball
He never used her name.
'Couldn't anyone have helped her?' I asked.
'When did they find her?' I felt I must know everything now
'They found her two months later
The sea had carried her forty miles up the coast
People still remember her.'
Please, Maxim, you tell her
'I am afraid of her
'It's all a mistake, Mrs Danvers,' Maxim told her
As she left the room I could see the scorn and hatred in her eyes.
She saw me once, looking at her
I shall never forget the look on her face
She came nearer and I could feel her breath on my face.
'It's a lovely room, isn't it? That was her bed
This was her nightdress
These are her slippers.'
'All her evening clothes are here
Mr de Winter was always buying clothes for her, beautiful clothes.'
Mrs Danvers held my arm tightly with her long thin fingers
Mrs Danvers' hand fell back to her side.
I feel her everywhere
You feel her too, don't you?'
This time I went out to the drive to meet her.
'Have you ever heard of a man called Jack Favell, Beatrice?' I asked her.
'He was here yesterday,' I told her
She had promised to meet her husband, Giles, at the station.
'I hope you won't be so thin next time I see you,' Beatrice said as she got into her car
Her face was grey with anger and the look in her eyes frightened me
Thank God she did not know I was watching her
I saw very little of her, and I was glad.
She was holding a piece of paper in her hand
Perhaps Maxim's anger had frightened her a little.
Her name was Caroline de Winter and she had been famous for her beauty
Then suddenly, it was tea-time and Beatrice and her husband, Giles, had arrived.
'Don't ask her,' said Maxim
'You've got her to thank for it,' said Maxim, smiling at me.
I found Clarice waiting for me in my bedroom, her face full of excitement
Yes, her dress was exactly like mine and she had the same curled hair
I shall never forget the terrible look on her face
Then I ran from her, back to my room, tripping and nearly falling over my long skirt.
'Known what?' I said, turning to look at her.
I knew her well
I knew her tall, slim figure, her small face and clear white skin
If I ever heard her voice, I would know it
'He's never forgotten her
This was her triumph - hers and Rebecca's.
She turned to me and I saw that her eyes were red with crying
There were dark shadows on her white face.
She turned her head away from me.
I went up to her and shook her by the arm.
How do you think I've felt, watching you sit in her place, using the things she used? I hear the servants calling you Mrs de Winter
And all the time, the real Mrs de Winter, with her smile and her lovely face is lying cold and dead in the church.'
'I looked after her when she was a child
'When she was only twelve years old, the men could not stop looking at her
The sea got her
The sea was too strong for her in the end.'
Mrs Danvers began to cry noisily, with her mouth open and her eyes dry.
That shows you he's not forgotten her, doesn't it? Of course Mr de Winter was jealous
All the men fell in love with her, Mr de Winter, Mr Favell, Mr Crawley
It was like a game to her.'
Mrs Danvers came close to me and put her face near to mine.
I backed away from her, towards the window
He can't forget her
He wants to be alone in the house again, with her.'
'We had better go down,' she said in her usual voice
I stared at her.
She turned her back on me and went along the corridor
There were some small boats near her.
I remember her smile
I killed her
I carried her body to the cabin, took the boat out that night and sank it
'I hated her
When I married her, people told me I was the luckiest man in the world.'
'I did not kill her then,' he said
'I let her laugh
She knew that I would take her to Manderley
She knew I would never divorce her
He had never loved her, never, never.
She met her friends there
I warned her
I told her that Manderley was mine
She was always going to his house and asking him to her cottage.
When she came back, she took Giles out sailing with her
I thought Favell was with her
"This is the end," I told her
She was smiling when I killed her
The bullet went through her heart.'
I saw her smile when she died.'
I was no longer afraid of Rebecca; I did not hate her any more
I rang the bell for a maid and when she came, I spoke to her angrily
It was Mrs Danvers, holding the menu in her hand
To my surprise, Mrs Danvers was there too, with Favell beside her
He went down to the cottage and killed her there
Were you on the beach when she took her boat out for the last time?'
She knew her for years,' Favell said, with his unpleasant smile.
Then Mrs Danvers came in and shut the door behind her.
Favell stared at Mrs Danvers as though he did not understand her.
Mrs Danvers shook her head
Mrs Danvers took the note, read it and then shook her head again.
'I've got her diary in my room,' Mrs Danvers replied
'I kept all her things
Mrs Danvers came back with a small book in her hand.
Only one thing worried her
That was the thought of illness, of dying slowly in her bed.'
'There must have been something wrong with her after all.'
I remember her words exactly
"If I'm really ill, I want to know." So I told her.'
I told her that
But that was nothing to do with her illness.'
Colonel Julyan's sister lived in London and he asked Maxim to take him to her house.
She wanted me to kill her
There was a long-distance call for her at six
'Favell phoned her, of course
I saw the staircase at Manderley and Mrs Danvers standing there in her long, black dress
But Brad, you can see Natalie, and you're waiting for her...'
'Why do you want to do your stunts, Natalie?' Brad Poole asks her
'Because I need the money,' Nathan tells her.
Nathan runs after her
Nathan sees her
'Wow! Look at her!' he thinks.
The Cat sees her, too
'How can I get away from her?' he thinks.
He cannot get away from her.
Who can do her stunts?'
'She can do her stunts!'
At six minutes past midnight, Tuesday morning, on the way home from a late rehearsal of her new stage show, Tina Evans saw her son, Danny, in a stranger's car
Two blocks from her house, intending to buy a quart of milk and a loaf of whole-wheat bread, Tina stopped at a twenty-four-hour market and parked in the dry yellow drizzle of a sodium-vapor light, beside a gleaming, cream-colored Chevrolet station wagon
She whispered her son's name, as if she would frighten off this beloved apparition if she spoke any louder.
Suddenly Tina's mouth went dry and sour, and her heart thudded
She still had not adjusted to the loss of her only child, because she'd never wanted - or tried - to adjust to it
Seizing on this boy's resemblance to her Danny, she was too easily able to fantasize that there had been no loss in the first place.
The police and the morticians had advised her that Danny was so badly torn up, so horribly mangled, that she was better off not looking at him
And now here he was sitting in the cream-colored Chevrolet wagon, brought to her by fate and by-
The boy became conscious of her gaze and turned toward her
She held her breath as his face came slowly around
But then, inevitably, her fantasy burst, for he wasn't Danny.
Pulling her gaze away from his, she studied her hands, which were gripping the steering wheel so fiercely that they ached.
She thought of herself as a tough, competent, levelheaded woman who was able to deal with anything life threw at her, and she was disturbed by her continuing inability to accept Danny's death.
Gradually, day by day, week by week, she had put Danny behind her, with sorrow, with guilt, with tears and much bitterness, but also with firmness and determination
She had taken several steps up in her career during the past year, and she had relied on hard work as a sort of morphine, using it to dull her pain until the wound fully healed.
Again, she was possessed by the haunting feeling that her child was alive
Time should have put even more distance between her and the anguish, but instead the passing days were bringing her around full circle in her grief
This boy in the station wagon was not the first that she had imagined was Danny; in recent weeks, she had seen her lost son in other cars, in schoolyards past which she had been driving, on public streets, in a movie theater.
She half convinced herself that the dream was a premonition of Danny's eventual return to her, that somehow he had survived and would be coming back into her arms one day soon.
She glanced at the station wagon and saw that the boy was still staring at her
She glared at her tightly clenched hands again and found the strength to break her grip on the steering wheel.
But she wasn't going to allow such a thing to happen to her
She had loved Danny with all her heart, but he was gone
The boy in the Chevy had lost interest in her
Tina got out of her Honda
She took a deep breath and went into the market, where the air was so cold that it pierced her bones, and where the harsh fluorescent lighting was too bright and too bleak to encourage fantasies.
Closing her eyes now, chewing the toast, Tina could still see him - three years old, peanut butter smeared all over his lips and chin - as he grinned and said, More neenut putter toast, please.
She opened her eyes with a start because her mental image of him was too vivid, less like a memory than like a vision
Her heart knotted in her chest, and her lower lip began to quiver again, and she put her head down on the table
And he needed her.
Danny was calling her name
Danny's cries and her response became increasingly shrill and desperate, for they knew that they must reach each other before nightfall or be lost forever; in the oncoming night, something waited for Danny, something fearsome that would seize him if he was alone after dark
Gradually doubt crept over her
As her heartbeat slowed, she eased back onto her pillow.
She closed her eyes and imagined herself lying beside him, reaching for him in the dark, touching, touching, moving against him, into the shelter of his arms
He would comfort and reassure her, and in time, she would sleep again.
He'd resist her affection, turn her away by picking a fight
He would begin the battle over a triviality and goad her until the bickering escalated into marital warfare
He had been seething with hostility, always seeking an excuse to vent his anger on her.
She had lost her child and her husband in the same year, the man first, and then the boy, the son to the grave and the husband to the winds of change
Although Michael was still living in town, less than a mile from her, he was, in some respects, as far away and as unreachable as Danny.
She sighed with resignation and opened her eyes.
Tomorrow was one of the most important days of her life: December 30
But for better or worse, this December 30 was the hinge, upon which her entire future would swing.
She began her career as a dancer - not a showgirl but an actual dancer - in the Lido de Paris, a gigantic stage show at the Stardust Hotel
She managed to be both a fine dancer and a good mother, although that was not always easy; she loved Danny, and she enjoyed her work and she thrived on double duty.
Five years ago, however, on her twenty-eighth birthday, she began to realize that she had, if she was lucky, ten years left as a show dancer, and she decided to establish herself in the business in another capacity, to avoid being washed up at thirty-eight
At first, it had seemed terribly wrong that such a wonderful opportunity should come her way before she'd even had time to mourn her boy, as if the Fates were so shallow and insensitive as to think that they could balance the scales and offset Danny's death merely by presenting her with a chance at her dream job
The tricky spelling of the title was not Tina's idea, but most of the rest of the program was her creation, and she remained pleased with what she had wrought
A month ago, for the first time, she'd thought that at last she had begun to overcome her grief
She would never forget him, that sweet child who had been such a large part of her, but she would no longer have to live her life around the gaping hole that he had left in it
Perhaps her anxiety about the public's reaction to Magyck! Was causing her to recall the greater anxiety she had felt about Danny
If audience reaction was as strong and as positive as Tina hoped, her financial future was assured, for her contract gave her two and one-half percent of the gross receipts, minus liquor sales, after the first five million
Of course, if the production was a flop, if it failed to please the audience, she might be back working the small lounges again, on her way down
Her obsessive fear of intruders in the house, her disquieting dreams about Danny, her renewed grief - all of those things might grow from her concern about Magyck! If that were the case, then those symptoms would disappear as soon as the fate of the show was evident
She fluffed her pillows, rearranged the covers, and tugged at the short nightgown in which she slept
She tried to relax by closing her eyes and envisioning a gentle night tide lapping at a silvery beach.
It must have been a large object because, though muffled by the intervening walls, the sound was loud enough to rouse her.
She cocked her head, listening closely
In the brittle silence of the desert night, she imagined that she could sense an intruder listening too, listening for her.
She got out of bed and stepped into her slippers
Holding the gun in her right hand, she went quietly to the bedroom door.
She was proud, unable to bear the thought of appearing to be hysterical to a couple of macho cops who would grin at her and, later over doughnuts and coffee, make jokes about her
She certainly couldn't share with him her appraisal of the situation: Danny, sweetheart, don't worry about anything you might have heard through the wall
And that was another reason she didn't attempt to explain her and Michael's problems to Danny - she thought that their estrangement was only temporary
She loved her husband, and she was sure that the sheer power of her love would restore the luster to their marriage
Now, anxious to complete her search for the burglar - who was beginning to look as imaginary as all the other burglars she had stalked on other nights - she opened the door to Danny's bedroom
Holding the pistol in front of her, she approached the closet, hesitated, then slid the door back
As she stared at the contents of the musky closet - the boy's shoes, his jeans, dress slacks, shirts, sweaters, his blue Dodgers' baseball cap, the small blue suit he had worn on special occasions - a lump rose in her throat
She quickly slid the door shut and put her back against it.
Gazing at the dead boy's toys and pathetic treasures, Tina realized, not for the first time, that it wasn't healthy for her to maintain this place as if it were a museum
Her inability to clean out his room suddenly frightened her; for the first time it seemed like more than just a weakness of spirit but an indication of serious mental illness
If she was ever to stop dreaming about the boy, if she were to get control of her grief, she must begin her recovery here, in this room, by conquering her irrational need to preserve his possessions in situ.
Both the VIP premiere and the opening night of Magyck! Would be behind her by then
As soon as she made that decision, most of her nervous energy dissipated
She put her gun down, went around the foot of the bed, and stood the easel on its legs, as it belonged
Belatedly, as she pressed her fingertips to the words on the chalkboard, the possible meaning of them struck her
In one of her terrible seizures of grief, in a moment of crazy dark despair, had she come into this room and unknowingly printed those words on Danny's chalkboard?
Or she was walking in her sleep
Her hands were icy; they chilled her sides even through her nightgown.
Shivering, she thoroughly erased the words on the chalkboard, retrieved her handgun, and left the room, pulling the door shut behind her.
In bed, again she snuggled in the covers and closed her eyes and tried not to think about the chalkboard
But an image of it appeared behind her eyes
But in her mind's eye, the seven letters reappeared on the chalkboard: NOT DEAD
Tina sat in one of the third-tier booths, nervously sipping ice water as she watched her show.
"We did it!" Joel shouted as he approached her
Tina slid out of her booth to meet him.
"We got a hit, kid!" Joel said, and he hugged her fiercely, planting a wet kiss on her cheek.
He had seen Tina's work in some lounges around town, and he had surprised her when he'd offered her the chance to co-produce Magyck! At first, she hadn't been sure if she should take the job
Working with that kind of money wasn't merely a step up for her; it was a giant leap.
Joel had convinced her that she'd have no difficulty matching his pace or meeting his standards, and that she was equal to the challenge
He helped her to discover new reserves of energy, new areas of competence in herself
As Tina stood in this beautiful theater, glancing down at the colorfully costumed people milling about on the stage, then looking at Joel's rubbery face, listening as her co-producer unblushingly raved about their handiwork, she was happier than she had been in a long time
Twenty minutes later, at 3:45, she stepped onto the smooth cobblestones in front of the hotel's main entrance and handed her claim check to the valet parking attendant
While he went to fetch her Honda, she stood in the warm late-afternoon sunshine, unable to stop grinning.
Tina supposed that some people would say this hotel was gross, crass, tasteless, ugly - but she loved the place because it was here that she had been given her big chance.
Carol Hirson, a cocktail waitress who was a friend of Tina's, had told her about the unlucky Texans a few minutes ago
Carol had been shiny-eyed and breathless because the high rollers had tipped her with green chips, as if they'd been winning instead of losing; for bringing them half a dozen drinks, she had collected twelve hundred dollars.
She didn't need that much time to shower, apply her makeup, and dress, so she decided to pack some of Danny's belongings
She was in such an excellent mood that she didn't think even the sight of his room would be able to bring her down, as it usually did
A chill swept down her back.
She had always prided herself on her toughness and her resiliency.
Someone was playing a sick, nasty trick on her
Whoever it was, he wanted to rub her face in the tragedy that she was trying so hard to forget.
But even if Vivienne had kept her scheduled appointment, she never would have written those words on the chalkboard
For a moment Tina racked her mind, searching for someone to blame, and then a name occurred to her
Shattered by the loss of his son, Michael had been irrationally vicious with Tina for months after the funeral, accusing her of being responsible for Danny's death
Everyone assured her there was no chance of trouble
She'd had no way of knowing that Jaborski's seventeenth trip would end in disaster, yet Michael blamed her
She stared at the chalkboard, thought of the two words that had been printed there, and anger swelled in her
Didn't he realize that her grief was as difficult to bear as his? What was he trying to prove?
In her mind the two words burned, white on black: NOT DEAD.
But she had lost her nerve
Until recently, she had rarely used alcohol to calm her nerves - but now it was her cure of first resort
She let the hot water beat down on her neck for several minutes, until the stiffness in her muscles melted and flowed away.
After the shower, the chilled wine further relaxed her body, although it did little to calm her mind and allay her anxiety
She headed toward the center booth in the VIP row, where Charles Mainway, general manager and principal stockholder of the Golden Pyramid Hotel, waited for her.
As Tina slid into the booth beside Mainway, a tuxedoed captain appeared and filled her glass with Dom PS 233; rignon.
"You see what he just did?" Helen asked Tina, clapping her hands with delight
They made pleasant small talk for the next fifteen minutes, and none of it had to do with Magyck! Tina was aware that they were trying to take her mind off the show, and she appreciated their effort.
Of course no amount of amusing talk, no quantity of icy Dom PS 233;rignon could render her unaware of the excitement that was building in the showroom as curtain time drew near
Somehow, even though her attention was partly on the mood of the crowd, partly on Helen and Charlie Mainway, Tina was nevertheless aware of Elliot Stryker's reaction to her
He made no great show of being more than ordinarily interested in her, but the attraction she held for him was evident in his eyes
Beneath his cordial, witty, slightly cool exterior, his secret response was that of a healthy male animal, and her awareness of it was more instinctual than intellectual, like a mare's response to the stallion's first faint stirrings of desire.
At least a year and a half, maybe two years, had passed since a man had looked at her in quite that fashion
Fighting with Michael, coping with the shock of separation and divorce, grieving for Danny, and putting together the show with Joel Bandiri had filled her days and nights, so she'd had no chance to think of romance.
Responding to the unspoken need in Elliot's eyes with a need of her own, she was suddenly warm.
Now that she had spent more than a year grieving for her broken marriage and for her lost son, now that Magyck! was almost behind her, she would have time to be a woman again
She shouldn't jump at the first man who wanted her
She had to admit that he sparked the same feelings in her that she apparently enflamed in him.
Vivienne Neddler parked her vintage 1955 Nash Rambler at the curb in front of the Evans house, being careful not to scrape the whitewalls
She believed in the moral value of hard work, and she always gave her employers their money's worth.
But Tina Evans was sympathetic; she knew how important the slot machines were to Vivienne, and she wasn't upset if Vivienne occasionally had to reschedule her visit.
For five years, ever since her sixty-fifth birthday, they had been pressuring her to live with them
She loved them as much as life itself, and she knew they truly wanted her with them; they were not inviting her out of a misguided sense of guilt and obligation
Besides, living in Sacramento, she wouldn't be a nickel duchess any longer; she wouldn't be anyone special; she would be just another elderly lady, living with her daughter's family, playing grandma, marking time, waiting to die.
Vivienne valued her independence more than anything else
She prayed that she would remain healthy enough to continue working and living on her own until, at last, her time came and all the little windows on the machine of life produced lemons.
As she was mopping the last corner of the kitchen floor, as she was thinking about how dreary life would be without her friends and her slot machines, she heard a sound in another part of the house
Vivienne Neddler refused to give anyone reason to think her a fool.
Besides, for the past twenty-one years, ever since her Harry died, she had always taken care of herself
There were five photographs in addition to the one that had dropped onto the sofa; two were responsible for the noises that had drawn her into the living room, and the other three were those that she had seen popping off the picture hooks
She felt a sympathetic resonance in her teeth and bones.
By the time she reached the closed door, her skin was goose-pimpled, and her teeth were chattering.
Step by step, her curiosity gave way to fear
An ominous pressure seemed to compress the air around her.
In spite of her anxiety, a power she could sense - but which she could not define - drew her inexorably to Danny's room.
She blinked rapidly, closed her eyes, opened them again, but still the doorknob appeared to be sheathed in a thin, irregular jacket of ice.
She pulled her hand away and examined her damp fingers
But she ignored her own advice
She pulled her blouse out of her slacks and used the tail to protect her hand from the icy metal doorknob
She put her shoulder against it, pushed gently, then harder, and finally the door swung inward.
A flickering, nervous scowl played across her face, alternating with a tentative smile that appeared when the audience laughed, applauded, or gasped in surprise.
Her shoulder-length hair - deep brown, almost black, glossy - swept across her brow, feathered back at the sides, and framed her face as though it were a painting by a great master
And her eyes..
She would have been lovely enough if her eyes had been dark, in harmony with the shade of her hair and skin, but they were crystalline blue
The contrast between her Italian good looks and her Nordic eyes was devastating.
Elliot supposed that other people might find flaws in her face
Perhaps some would say that her brow was too wide
Others might say that her mouth was too wide, her chin too pointed
To Elliot, however, her face was perfect.
But her physical beauty was not what most excited him
Elliot wanted to know more about Christina Evans - and on a more fundamental level, he just wanted her.
Gradually, as her ears stopped ringing, Vivienne perceived the soft empty hiss of the stereo speakers
Then she heard the thumping of her own heart.
A sliver of ice broke loose under her finger and fell onto the nightstand
The dresser mirror was frosted too, and her reflection was dim and distorted and strange.
As soon as she took her finger off the push switch, the radio turned itself on again.
When she shut off the radio the third time, she kept her finger pressed against the ON-OFF bar
For several seconds she was certain that she could feel the switch straining under her fingertip as it tried to pop on.
She felt a presence, something that wanted her, and she cried out as the door came all the way open.
Vivienne backed into the wall, eyes wide, hands fisted at her sides.
Regardless of how convincingly and earnestly she described these bizarre events, no one would believe her
Sooner or later word of her ranting's about poltergeists might get back to her daughter in Sacramento, and then the pressure to move to California would become unbearable
Vivienne wasn't going to jeopardize her precious independence.
She refused to let a poltergeist scare her off.
Maybe some churching would be good for her
Tina was on an adrenaline high, grinning, breathless, barely able to absorb the overwhelming response to her work
Helen Mainway chattered excitedly about the spectacular special effects, and Elliot Stryker had an endless supply of compliments as well as some astute observations about the technical aspects of the production, and Charlie Mainway poured a third bottle of Dom PS 233; rignon, and the house lights came up, and the audience reluctantly began to leave, and Tina hardly had a chance to sip her champagne because of all the people who stopped by the table to congratulate her.
When the aisle in front of her booth was finally empty of well-wishers, Tina got up and met Joel as he started to come to her
She threw her arms around him and, much to her surprise began to cry with happiness
"I'll give you my address." She searched her purse for a pen.
Tina gave her address to him, and then somehow they were talking about jazz and Benny Goodman, and then about the miserable service provided by the Las Vegas phone company, just chatting away as if they were old friends
He made her feel comfortable, yet at the same time, he intrigued her
an infinity of new opportunities made available to her because of this first smashing success..
As she listed her blessings, Tina was astonished at how much difference one year could make in a life
She heard his frightened voice calling to her, and she peered over the edge of the pit, and he was so far below her that his face was only a tiny, pale smudge
Tina shouted at the man in black, but he ignored her and kept shoveling dirt on top of Danny
She edged around the pit, determined to make the hateful bastard stop what he was doing, but he took a step away from her for every step that she took toward him, and he always stayed directly across the hole from her
When she thought of clubbing him, he looked at her, and she saw his face: a fleshless skull with rotting skin stretched over the bones, burning red eyes, a yellow-toothed grin
Tina's terror over Danny's impending entombment was suddenly mixed with fear for her own life
She was convinced that the man in black was in her bedroom, standing silently in the darkness, grinning
She wiped one hand across her face, sloughing off a film of perspiration
She dried her hand on the sheets.
In the bathroom, she washed her face
Her fear made her angry with herself, and at last, she twisted the switch.
She had to confront him with her suspicions
She had to know if he'd been in the house, in Danny's room, without her knowledge or permission.
He would be sleeping, but she wouldn't feel guilty if she woke him, not after all the sleepless nights that he had given her
And if Michael had slipped into the house like a little boy playing a cruel prank, if he had written that message on the chalkboard, then his hatred of her was far greater than she had thought
She would call him in the morning when she had regained some of her strength.
His praise was so effusive that, even reading it by herself, in her own kitchen, she was slightly embarrassed by the effusiveness of the praise.
She stopped at the easel, set it up as it belonged, hesitated, then turned the chalkboard toward her.
Tina arrived at Bally's Hotel at ten minutes till two, Wednesday afternoon, leaving her Honda with a valet parking attendant.
She'd thought the sight of her would wipe the smile off his face
He was shuffling cards when he saw her, and he continued to shuffle while he spoke
She smiled uneasily and tried to remember that she had come here to accuse him of cruelly harassing her
The frantic activity and the unrelenting excitement, which bordered on hysteria at times, abraded her nerves.
She had lost the momentum occasioned by her anger, and now she was afraid of losing the sense of purpose that had driven her to confront him
When they were first married, he'd been fun, charming, easygoing, but he had not been that way with her in a long time.
As they walked, Michael continued to try to amuse her by telling her about other unusual maladies to which gamblers were prone.
Her original intention had been to accuse him of ripping apart Danny's room; she had been prepared to come on strong, so that even if he didn't want her to know he'd done it, he might be rattled enough to reveal his guilt
But now, if she started making nasty accusations after he'd been so pleasant to her, she would seem to be a hysterical harpy, and if she still had any advantage left, she would quickly lose it.
He stopped walking and stared at her
He licked his ice-cream cone, studied her, and then he smiled
"Sure." He mistook her astonishment for surprised delight
He still persisted in regarding her as a flighty woman who wanted to take a fling at being a Vegas producer
The insufferable bastard! She was furious, but she said nothing; she didn't trust herself to speak, afraid that she would start screaming at him the instant she opened her mouth.
Well, not her ambition as much as Michael's childish attitude toward it
As she had struggled to move up from dancer to costumer to choreographer to lounge-revue coordinator to producer, Michael had been displeased with her commitment to work
She had been determined that neither of them would have reason to feel that his importance in her life had diminished
Gradually Michael's displeasure over her desire to succeed was complicated by a darker emotion: He grew jealous of her smallest achievements
The only way she could have held on to her husband would have been to abandon her new career, and she had refused to do that.
In time Michael had made it clear to her that, he hadn't actually ever loved the real Christina
He didn't tell her directly, but his behavior said as much
As long as she remained a dancer, as long as she devoted her life to him, as long as she hung on his arm and looked delicious, he approved of her
That was why he'd smiled when he'd seen her at his blackjack table
The size of his ego astounded her.
Standing before her in the sunshine, his white shirt shimmering with squiggles of reflected light that bounced off the parked cars, he favored her with that self-satisfied, superior smile that made her feel as cold as this winter day ought to have been.
He interrupted her before she'd said more than his name
He hurried to her
She had never vented any of her black anger because, initially, she'd wanted to hide it from Danny; she hadn't wanted to turn him against his father
Later, after Danny was dead, she'd repressed her feelings because she'd known that Michael had been truly suffering from the loss of his child, and she hadn't wanted to add to his misery
But now she vented some of the acid that had been eating at her for so long, cutting him off in midsentence.
He was trying desperately to deflect her and change the course of the argument
She could see what he was up to, and she was not going to be distracted from her main intention.
Finished telling him off, she felt pleasantly wrung out, as if some evil, nervous energy had been drained from her.
She walked back through the shopping arcade, rode the escalator up to the casino, and made her way through the noisy crowd to the front doors
One of the valet-parking attendants brought her car, and she drove down the hotel's steeply slanted exit drive.
She couldn't see where she was going, because hot tears streamed down her face
She just surrendered to the racking grief that swept through her and did not question it.
She dried her eyes and blew her nose.
She'd had enough gloom in her life
She inspected her face in the rearview mirror to see how much damage the crying jag had done
She opened her purse, found her makeup, and covered the tearstains as best she could.
A block farther, as she waited at a red light, she realized that she still had a mystery on her hands
If some stranger wanted her to feel more pain over the loss of her child, however, that was definitely unsettling
Michael was the only person who had ever blamed her for Danny's death
A horn tooted behind her.
As she drove across the intersection and into the entrance drive that led to the Golden Pyramid Hotel, Tina couldn't shake the creepy feeling that she was being watched by someone who meant to harm her
As far as she could tell, no one was tailing her.
Because she was seldom in her office at night, the drapes were rarely open
The office was shadowy, and she was at her desk in a pool of soft light.
As Tina pored over a final bill for carpentry work on some of the Magyck! Sets, Angela, her secretary, stepped in from the outer office
Tina glanced at her watch
Leaning back in her chair, Tina said, "Yes
It'll be a great promotion, don't you think?" She raised her hands, as if framing her next words, "The Golden Pyramid - a Magyck! Place for lovers."
Tina returned to her inspection of the carpenter's bill, and Angela was back at five minutes past four with thirty pages of data.
Alone now on the third floor, she sat in the pool of amber light at her desk, surrounded by shadows, yawning
She'd need two hours to get ready for her date with Elliot Stryker.
She smiled when she thought of him, then picked up the sheaf of papers that Angela had given her, anxious to finish her work.
If she needed to know how much money each of these people earned in a year, the computer could tell her
It could tell her each man's preferred brand of liquor, each wife's favorite flower and perfume, the make of car they drove, the names and ages of their children, the nature of any illnesses or other medical conditions they might have, their favorite foods, their favorite colors, their tastes in music, their political affiliations, and scores of other facts both important and trivial
She stared at what the computer had printed, and fear welled in her - dark, cold, oily fear.
The paper rattled as her hands began to shake.
Who was doing this to her?
She thought of the man in her nightmare, the man in black whose face had been lumpy with maggots, and the shadows in the corner of her office seemed darker and deeper than they had been a moment ago.
She went to Angela's desk, sat in her chair, and switched on the computer
Tina typed her personal access number - E013331555
After a moment's hesitation the computer asked for her name; she entered that, and the computer matched her number and name
She wiped them on her slacks and then quickly tapped out her request
Tina waited until at least a hundred names had been listed before she decided that the system had been programmed to print the lines about Danny only one time, only on her office's first data request of the afternoon, and on no later call-up.
But how could any stranger so easily gain entrance to both her house and the hotel computer? Didn't he, after all, have to be someone she knew?
What stranger could possibly hate her so much?
Fear, like an uncoiling snake, twisted and slithered inside of her, and she shivered.
Then she realized it wasn't only fear that made her quiver
Or was it her imagination?
Behind her
Reaching toward her with a hand that would be cold and damp
She spun around in her chair, but no one had come into the room.
How stupid of her.
She managed to break the grip of fear that had paralyzed her, and she put her fingers on the keyboard
She intended to determine if the words about Danny had been previously programmed to print out on her machine or if they had been sent to her just seconds ago by someone at another computer in another office in the hotel's elaborately networked series of workstations.
She had an almost psychic sense that the perpetrator of this viciousness was in the building now, perhaps on the third floor with her
She imagined herself leaving her office, walking down the long hallway, opening doors, peering into silent, deserted offices, until at last she found a man sitting at another terminal
He would turn toward her, surprised, and she would finally know who he was.
Would he harm her? Kill her?
This was a new thought: the possibility that his ultimate goal was to do something worse than torment and scare her.
She probably wouldn't get the answers she needed, and she would only be acknowledging her presence to whomever might be out there at another workstation
Then she realized that, if he really was nearby, he already knew she was in her office, alone
But when she attempted to type in her instruction, the keyboard was locked; the keys wouldn't depress.
Again, she tried to feed in her questions
How could he make the room colder without using the air conditioner? Whoever he was, he could override her computer from another terminal in the building; she could accept that
A hot welling of tears blurred her vision, and she struggled to repress them
She had to be losing her mind
She hurried around the desk, banging her hip against one corner, heading for the wall socket as the printer hummed with the production of more hateful words.
She took hold of the two lines - one heavy cable and one ordinary insulated wire - and they seemed to come alive in her hands, like a pair of snakes, resisting her
She started around Angela's desk, wanting nothing more at the moment than to get off her rubbery legs and onto a chair - and suddenly the door to the hall opened, and she cried out in alarm.
Elliot Stryker halted on the threshold, surprised by her scream, and for an instant, she was relieved to see him.
Could he be the man who'd been harassing her?
He moved toward her.
"What?" he asked, obviously baffled by her question.
Still puzzled but beginning to get impatient with her, Elliot said, "My business wasn't on the third floor
And if he were lying, he wouldn't have told her the story about Charlie and coffee, for that could be substantiated or disproved with only a minimum of effort; he would have come up with a better alibi if he really needed one
He went to her
As he drew near, he opened his arms, as if it was the most natural thing in the world for him to hold and comfort her, as if he had held her many times before, and she leaned against him in the same spirit of familiarity
Tina kept a well-stocked bar in one corner of her office for those infrequent occasions when a business associate needed a drink after a long work session
At her request, Elliot poured RS 233; my Martin into two snifters and gave one glass to her
She couldn't pour for them because her hands were shaking too badly.
She was forced to hold her brandy snifter in both hands to keep it steady.
It was hot in her throat, but it didn't burn away the chill at the center of her.
He seemed to know that she had to go through the whole story to get it off her mind.
killed." The bitterness in her voice dismayed her because it revealed how little she had healed
Elliot looked up at her
He took her glass out of her hand
She didn't remember finishing her cognac
She told him about the bizarre things that had been happening to her lately: the messages on Danny's chalkboard; the wreckage she'd found in the boy's room; the hateful, taunting words that appeared in the computer lists and on the monitor.
He picked up his brandy snifter from the low table in front of the sofa, and he sat on the edge of her desk
Tina was disturbed by his analysis because it matched her own, and it led her into the same blind alley that she'd traveled before
She had to take another small sip of cognac before she was able to say what was on her mind, and she realized that he had been right about the liquor having little effect on her
Elliot returned to the couch and sat beside her
She leaned forward, put her brandy snifter on the table, and for a moment sat with her face in her hands.
She lifted her head
"I'm not going to think you're nuts," Elliot assured her
Elliot cocked his head, studied her with those probing, dark eyes
Elliot put his hand on her shoulder and squeezed gently
Aware that her answer had disappointed him, she looked down at her hands, which were laced together so tightly that her knuckles were white.
Elliot touched her face, turning it gently toward him.
His beautiful, expressive eyes seemed to be filled with concern for her.
She shook her head
A couple weeks after the little girl was buried, the mother started feeling guilty about not paying her last respects."
Remembering her own ordeal, Tina said, "I know
Because the mother hadn't seen the body in the funeral home, she just couldn't bring herself to believe her daughter was really dead
"But don't forget," Elliot said, "her daughter's body wasn't mutilated."
As he showed her through the house, he was eager to hear her reaction to it, and she didn't make him wait long.
The project became a vocation for her, and I spent nearly as much time on it as I did on my legal practice
I discovered I couldn't learn to cope with the loss if I stayed in a place that was so crowded with memories of her
Finally I took a few mementos, a dozen pieces by which I'll always remember her, and I moved out, sold the house, bought this one, and started decorating all over again."
He showed her through the rest of the house, which she wanted to see
He enjoyed discussing antiques and paintings with her, and an hour passed in what seemed to be only ten minutes.
Her smile was so lovely that he could have stood there all evening, just staring at the sweet curve of her lips.
Although she was different from Nancy in many ways, being with her was like being with Nancy
Elliot wasn't pushing her
At the start of the evening, the undercurrent of sexual tension made her nervous
Suddenly it seemed to her that she had done a mad, stupid thing when she'd hidden away like a nun for two years
Later, with the stage show to produce and with poor Danny's death weighing heavily on her, she hadn't been in the mood for romance
She told herself that sex was just like riding a bicycle, impossible to un learn, but the frivolousness of that analogy didn't increase her self-confidence.
Gradually, however, as she and Elliot went through the standard rites of courtship, the indirect sexual thrusts and parries of a budding relationship, albeit at an accelerated pace, the familiarity of the games reassured her
Tina kicked off her shoes.
He may have leaned toward her, or perhaps she tilted toward him
And then he began planting small kisses on her forehead, on her eyes, on her cheeks, her nose, the corners of her mouth, her chin
He kissed her ears, her eyes again, and left a chain of kisses along her neck, and when at last he returned to her mouth, he kissed her more deeply than before, and she responded at once, opening her mouth to him.
His hands moved over her, testing the firmness and resilience of her, and she touched him too, gently squeezing his shoulders, his arms, the hard muscles of his back
Nothing had ever felt better to her than he felt at that moment.
During the minute that he was away from her, she was afraid the spell was broken
He was not a particularly large man, but he picked her up in his arms as if she were a child.
She saw a longing and a need in his dark eyes, a powerful wanting that was only partly sex, and she knew the same need to be loved and valued must be in her eyes for him to see.
He carried her to the bed, put her down, and urged her to lie back
Without haste, with a breathless anticipation that lit up his face, he undressed her.
He quickly stripped off his own clothes and joined her on the bed, took her in his arms.
He explored her body slowly, deliberately, first with his eyes, then with his loving hands, then with his lips and tongue.
Tina realized that she had been wrong to think that celibacy should be a part of her period of mourning
Good, healthy lovemaking with a man who cared for her would have helped her recover much faster than she had done, for sex was the antithesis of death, a joyous celebration of life, a denial of the tomb's existence.
As he entered her, she let her hands travel over his body, along his lean flanks.
He'd had other women in this bed during the past two years, and a few had stayed the night, but not one of those other lovers had made him feel content merely by the fact of her presence, as Tina did
With her, sex was a delightful bonus, a lagniappe, but it wasn't the main reason he wanted her beside him
She was an excellent lover - silken, smooth, and uninhibited in the pursuit of her own pleasure - but she was also vulnerable and kind
The vague, shadowy shape of her under the covers, in the darkness, was a talisman to ward off loneliness.
She sat straight up, the sheets knotted in her fists, catapulted out of a nightmare
She was quaking, gasping about a man dressed all in black, the monstrous figure from her dream.
Elliot switched on the bedside lamp to prove to her that they were alone in the room.
The exhumation of Danny's body would be good for her, regardless of the horror that she might have to confront when the coffin lid was raised
He switched off the bedside lamp and persuaded her to lie down again
He held her until she stopped shuddering.
To his surprise, her fear rapidly changed to desire
Over breakfast, he asked her to go with him to the afternoon party at which he was going to corner Judge Kennebeck to ask about the exhumation
But Tina wanted to go back to her place and clean out Danny's room
She felt up to the challenge now, and she intended to finish the task before she lost her nerve again.
She rose out of her chair, leaned across the table, kissed him.
The smell of her, the vibrant blue of her eyes, the feel of her supple skin as he put a hand to her face - those things generated waves of affection and longing within him.
He walked her to her Honda in the driveway and leaned in the window after she was behind the wheel, delaying her for another fifteen minutes while he planned, to her satisfaction, every dish of this evening's dinner.
When at last she drove away, he watched her car until it turned the corner and disappeared, and when she was gone, he knew why he had not wanted to let her go
He'd been trying to postpone her departure because he was afraid that he would never see her again after she drove off.
But Tina herself didn't think there was any serious danger, and Elliot tended to agree with her
The malicious tormentor wanted her to suffer mental anguish and spiritual pain; but he didn't want her to die, because that would spoil his fun.
The fear Elliot felt at her departure was purely superstitious
He was convinced that, with her arrival on the scene, he had been granted too much happiness, too fast, too soon, too easily
Now, for the judge's benefit, and to explain why an exhumation had suddenly become such a vital matter, Elliot exaggerated the anguish and confusion that Tina had undergone as a direct consequence of never having seen the body of her child.
So he'd contest the exhumation for no other reason but to cause her grief?"
And her husband saves a bundle in attorney's fees that he'd just be throwing away in a hopeless attempt to stop us."
"Tina Evans? What about her?"
"Got to know why she wants her little boy's grave reopened."
"Are you the ones who keep sending her messages?"
We have to know if someone's ratted to her
She gritted her teeth, however, and restrained the urge to leave the room with the job uncompleted.
Initially his growing fascination with the macabre had not seemed entirely healthy to her, but she had never denied him the freedom to pursue it
He was glaring up at her from inside the box
In every repulsive detail, he was precisely like the hideous creature that stalked her nightmares.
How could she have dreamed about this hideous creature just last night and then find it waiting for her here, today, only hours later?
The burning, scarlet eyes of the monstrous figure in the drawing seemed to follow her.
The memory of it was fixed in her subconscious, festering, until she eventually incorporated it into her nightmares.
But after she had made up her mind to let him read such stuff, she never thereafter even glanced at his purchases.
Grinning at her.
As her fingers touched the glossy cover, a bell rang.
He followed her past the kitchen, into the short hall, into the laundry room, and from there into the garage.
He looked up at her
He ran to the kitchen phone, snatched up the handset, and realized that he didn't know her number
He thought of her slightly crooked smile, her eyes as quick and deep and cool and blue as a pure mountain stream
Then he remembered her address
He could be at her place in five minutes.
But the first night in the country, the mother received a vision in which Kevin was buried alive and calling for her
The vision was so vivid, so disturbing, that she and her husband raced back to the city that very night to have the grave reopened at dawn
strange parallels existed between this gruesome tale and the recent ugliness in her own life.
Into her dream, she incorporated a grisly character from an old issue of a horror-comics magazine that was in Danny's collection
Crazily, Tina felt as if her nightmare had not come from within her, but from without, as if some person or force had projected the dream into her mind in an effort to-
To tell her that Danny had been buried alive?
That's what both the authorities and the mortician had told her
And if, by some million-to-one chance, the boy had been alive when he'd been buried, why would it take an entire year for her to receive a vision from the spirit world?
This last thought profoundly shocked her
Yet now she was seriously considering the possibility that her dreams had some otherworldly significance
Her sudden gullibility dismayed and alarmed her, because it indicated that the decision to have Danny's body exhumed was not having the stabilizing effect on her emotions that she had hoped it would.
It was her dream, entirely of her making.
She had paged through only two of the magazines Danny had bought, the first two, when she had been trying to make up her mind whether such unusual reading material could have any harmful effects on him
Frustrated and angry at herself for her inability to solve the puzzle, she turned from the window
Death glared hungrily at her from the cover.
To her surprise, through the fish-eye lens, she saw Elliot on the stoop.
When she opened the door, he came in fast, almost in a crouch, glancing past her, left and right, toward the living room, then toward the dining area, speaking rapidly, urgently
At first, she half believed that he was trying to be funny, playing a game to amuse her, and she was going to tell him that none of this struck her as funny
He put a hand against her back, gently but firmly urging her out of the foyer.
He followed close behind her
Elliot put a hand on her shoulder, stopped her, and turned her around just as they entered the bedroom
She felt the blood drain from her face.
She snatched her hand off the knob as if she had almost picked up a tarantula.
Tina passed a leafy green plant, a four-foot-high schefflera that she had owned since it was only one-fourth as tall as it was now, and she had the insane urge to stop and risk getting caught in the coming explosion just long enough to pick up the plant and take it with her
But an image of crimson eyes, yellow skin - the leering face of death - flashed through her mind, and she kept moving.
She tightened her grip on the horror-comics magazine in her left hand
In the foyer, Elliot jerked open the front door, pushed her through ahead of him, and they both plunged into the golden late-afternoon sunshine.
A blood-freezing image rose at the back of her mind: the house torn apart by a colossal blast, shrapnel of wood and glass and metal whistling toward her, hundreds of sharp fragments piercing her from head to foot.
The flagstone walk that led across her front lawn seemed to be one of those treadmill pathways in a dream, stretching out farther in front of her the harder that she ran, but at last, she reached the end of it and dashed into the street
Elliot's Mercedes was parked at the far curb, and she was six or eight feet from the car when the sudden outward-sweeping shock of the explosion shoved her forward
She stumbled and fell into the side of the sports car, banging her knee painfully.
He was safe, close behind her, knocked off balance by the force of the shock wave, staggering forward, but unhurt.
Elliot pushed her away from the Mercedes so he could open the door on the passenger side
He grabbed her arm, swung her away from the burning house, the sight of which affected her as much as if it had been a hypnotist's slowly swinging pocket watch.
Frightened, dazed by the incredible speed at which her world had begun to disintegrate, she did as he said.
When she was in the car, he shut her door, ran to the driver's side, and climbed in behind the steering wheel.
Tina had been looking back at her house
Stupefied by the unexpected violence, by the loss of her house, and by her close brush with death, she had seemed to be in a trance; now she had snapped out of it
He was encouraged by her resilience.
Elliot went to her
Her hand was cold, but her grip was firm.
Elliot blinked at her, amazed by her natural facility for deception.
Elliot wanted to hug her
"Swindled," Tina said, shaking her head.
She smiled at her bewildered host and went to the passenger side of the car while Elliot opened the driver's door.
Each time he glanced at her, she was either crouched forward, squinting at every new street they entered, or twisted halfway around in her seat, looking out the rear window
Her face was drawn, and she was biting her lower lip.
Elliot took her hand
The traffic light changed to green, and Elliot reluctantly let go of her hand.
He was aware of her watching him, and after a while she said, "You know what?"
"I like it better when you're on top," he said, and he winked at her.
She leaned forward and picked something up from the floor between her feet
In the rush to get out of her house before the gas explosion leveled it, he hadn't noticed that she'd been carrying anything
She glanced back toward the car, a curious expression on her face.
Tina cleared her throat
Why did Christina Evans ask you, rather than another attorney, to handle the exhumation of her son's body?
What reason does she have to doubt the official story of her son's death?
Does she have any proof that the official story of her son's death is false?
Arms on the table, both hands clasped around her glass of beer, Tina leaned toward Elliot
She shook her head
Tina looked down at the wet circle that her glass had left on the table
Then she wiped it away with the palm of her hand.
Her hand shook when she raised her glass to drink the last of her own Coors.
She was filled with a new dread, a fear greater than the one that had burned within her during the past few hours
She felt as if a vast unbridgeable gap separated her from people like these, and she wondered if she ever again would be as relaxed and free from care as these diners were at this moment.
A sharp, cold draft prickled the back of her neck.
It was ludicrous to suspect any of them of being employed by the secret organization that had blown up her house
Tina wasn't able to cover her ears; her arms hung straight down at her sides, frozen, rigid, hands fisted, and she couldn't find the will or the strength to lift them
It meant her no harm
The tension went out of her neck and shoulder muscles
But before she could think of a way to phrase her odd request, the old man succeeded in unplugging the machine.
Al didn't believe her, but Tina did.
He frowned, baffled by her smile.
He was confused by the change in her demeanor, but she didn't want to explain things to him here in the diner
Elliot stared at her with consternation and with pity, his dark eyes reflecting a distant light
"We've already been through this argument, and we rejected it," he reminded her.
but he's reaching out to me." She struggled to explain the understanding that had come to her in the diner
I don't know." A flood of unreasonable anger washed through her: "Christ, how could I know the answer to that?"
He put a hand on her shoulder
In the dim light, where the brightest thing was mauve shadow, he found her eyes, held her with his intent gaze
She felt as if he were not merely looking at her but into her, through her
Finally, he leaned over and kissed the corner of her mouth, then her cheek, her eyes.
The taste of his lips and his warmth made her inexpressibly happy.
He sighed, leaned back from her, and started the car
Though Tina continued to be buoyed by the unshakable conviction that Danny was alive, fear crept into her again as they drove onto Charleston Boulevard
The only thing that scared her now was the possibility that they might find Danny - and then be unable to rescue him
The longer he thought about it, the less Kennebeck was able to believe that the Evans woman knew the truth about her son
Surely, if someone from Project Pandora had told her what had happened to that busload of scouts, she wouldn't have reacted to the news with equanimity
But on the other hand, she was working through Stryker to have her son's grave reopened, which seemed to indicate that she knew something.
She felt as if she had failed to pay her last respects to the deceased
She was in great distress, and she suffered from horrible dreams that plagued her every night
Christina Evans probably hadn't entertained a single doubt about the official explanation of the Sierra accident; she probably hadn't known a damned thing about Pandora when she had requested an exhumation, but her timing couldn't have been worse.
If the woman actually hadn't known anything of the cover-up, then the Network could have used her ex-husband and the legal system to delay the reopening of the grave
Then the guilt-stricken mother could have been permitted one last, late, ghastly look at the remains of her son.
The sound of her laughter startled Elliot, but then he had to admit to himself that he did not feel menaced by the work of this poltergeist
Elliot saw tears of happiness shining in her eyes.
Pale light from a street lamp pierced the windshield, revealing a hard-edged determination in her face, steely resolution in her blue eyes.
I'm glad you see it my way." She opened her door and climbed out of the car.
He knew then, beyond any shadow of a doubt, that he loved her.
She waited beside him, arms folded, hands tucked into her armpits for warmth.
Elliot was worried about her, afraid for her, but at the same time, he was glad to have her company.
Elliot wanted to take Tina by the arm and hustle her back to the car
He kept one hand on her back as she leaned toward the window, and he felt her go rigid when she glimpsed the dead man
"But they expected us through the front door." He took her by the arm
He helped Tina over the cemetery wall, and then, clambering after her, he was sure that someone grabbed his coat from behind
Tina raised her head, glanced at the empty street behind them, then looked at Elliot
He picked it up, opened it, and stared at her photograph
He decided he would kill her himself when the time came, and that thought gave him an instant erection.
Danny called to her again and again, begging her to save him before the roof of his underground prison caved in and buried him alive
She started down the tunnel toward him, determined to get him out of there - and something reached for her from a narrow cleft in the wall
She turned, and she was looking into the grinning face of Death, as if he were peering out at her from the bowels of Hell
She cried out, but then she saw that Death could not quite reach her
The hole in the wall was not wide enough for him to step through, into her passageway; he could only thrust one arm at her, and his long, bony fingers were an inch or two short of her
A dozen times, she passed chinks in the wall, and Death glared out at her from every one of those apertures, screamed and cursed and raged at her, but none of the holes was large enough to allow him through
Taking in her broad smile, he said, "Obviously, it wasn't the nightmare."
She recounted the dream in detail, and Elliot admitted that her interpretation wasn't strained.
She felt almost as if she had him in her arms again, and she didn't want anyone to tell her that he might be a hair's breadth beyond her grasp.
She allowed her eyes to swim out of focus.
She tried closing her eyes.
Elliot withdrew another one from the leatherette case and handed it to her
Half an hour and five maps later, Tina's hand suddenly skipped across the paper as if someone had bumped her arm.
She felt a peculiar pulling sensation that seemed to come from within her hand, and she stiffened in surprise.
Instantly the invasive power retreated from her.
She put the pen at the edge of the map once more, and she let her eyes drift out of focus.
Her right hand, in which she held the pen, grew rapidly colder than any other part of her
Abruptly her hand swung across the map, then back, then described a series of circles; the pen made meaningless scrawls on the paper
After half a minute, she felt the power leave her hand again.
Tina got up from the bed, massaging her cold right hand
"Her mind was messed up before I ever met her."
All Sandstone did was move one hand slowly back and forth in front of Tina's face, simultaneously speaking to her in a quiet, rhythmic voice, frequently using her name.
Tina lowered her gaze from the empty air to the map, and her hand began to move
Tina let the pen drop from her fingers
She lifted her gaze from the map
"Are you finished?" Billy asked her.
With a few simple sentences and a sharp clap of his hands, the hypnotist brought her out of the trance.
Tina leaned across the corner of the table, grabbed Billy's head in her hands, pulled his face to hers, and kissed him
"Soon now," Tina said, glancing at the map that was open on her knees.
As Elliot started to open his door, Tina saw something that made her grab his arm
Tina raised her hands in an involuntary and totally useless attempt to ward off the bullets.
"Not only did someone on Project Pandora tell this Evans woman about her son
He's going to help the bitch get her son out of there!"
"Well," Tina said, unsuccessfully trying to conceal her own anxiety, "we didn't need the snowshoes after all."
The light on the indicator board changed from four to three to two, and the air inside the lift became so frigid that Tina's breath hung in clouds before her
She looked around, waiting for some sign from her child, and she and Elliot twitched in surprise when the overhead fluorescent tube winked off, then came on again
Tina had never heard Elliot speak in this tone of voice, and his furious expression was sufficient to chill even her
Zachariah regarded her as he might have done if she had been dead on the floor and then miraculously risen.
Elliot took the remaining rope from Tina, and he gave her the pistol
Fear spread tendrils through her and rooted her feet to the floor.
Elliot touched her shoulder
He stared at her through the side rails of the bed.
Dombey, sensing her shock, said, "He's emaciated
She couldn't pinpoint what else about his eyes made him so different from any eyes she had ever seen, but as she met Danny's gaze, a shiver passed through her, and she felt a profound and terrible pity for him.
The boy blinked, and with what appeared to be great effort, at the cost of more than a little pain, he withdrew one arm from under the covers and reached out toward her
He thrust it between two of the side rails, and he opened his small weak hand beseechingly, reaching for love, trying desperately to touch her.
Danny didn't need to see her cry
Now, as she approached his bed, she bit her lower lip so hard that she tasted blood
She struggled to contain her tears, but she needed all her willpower to keep her eyes dry.
Danny became excited when he saw her drawing near, and in spite of his terrible condition, he shakily thrust himself into a sitting position, clutching at the bed rails with one frail, trembling hand, eagerly extending his other hand toward her.
She took the last few steps haltingly, her heart pounding, her throat constricted
From somewhere deep inside of him, from far down beneath all the pain and fear and anguish, Danny found a smile for her
It was such a tentative smile, such a vague ghost of all the broad warm smiles she remembered, that it broke her heart.
Tina pushed down the railing and sat on the edge of the bed and carefully pulled Danny into her arms
At first, she was afraid to hug him, for fear he would shatter in her embrace
But he hugged her very hard, and again she was surprised by how much strength he could still summon from his devastated body
Shaking violently, snuffling, he put his face against her neck, and she felt his scalding tears on her skin
She couldn't control herself any longer, so she allowed her own tears to come, rivers of tears, a flood
Putting one hand on the boy's back to press him against her, she discovered how shockingly spindly he was each rib and vertebra so prominent that she seemed to be holding a skeleton
When she pulled him into her lap, he trailed wires that led from electrodes on his skin to the monitoring machines around the bed, like an abandoned marionette
The child still clung to her, but his deeply sunken eyes were riveted on Dombey.
She was having difficulty-wrapping Danny securely in the blanket because he wouldn't let go of her
I want to question her
She's going to tell me who helped her get into the labs even if I have to break her fingers one at a time to make her open up."
Apparently afraid that she would voice her thoughts and alert Dombey to the incredible truth of the situation, Elliot consulted his wristwatch and said, "We ought to get out of here."
Elliot gave her the pistol and started toward the bed.
Tina shook her head, puzzled
He was still her sweet boy - yet he was changed
The Eyes of Darkness is a modest little thriller about a woman, Tina Evans, who lost her child, Danny, when he was in an accident on a trip with his scouting troop
A year later, Tina has reason to believe the accident did not occur as reported - that her son is alive, is being held against his will, and is in desperate need of her
Although The Eyes of Darkness does not have the intensity, the humor, the depth of characterization, the complexity of theme, or the pace of later novels, readers have responded positively to it over the years, most likely because the device of a lost child - and the dedicated mother who will do anything to find out what happened to her little boy - strikes a primal chord in all of us.
If you haven't yet read The Eyes of Darkness, I am giving away nothing important in the story when I tell you that eventually, in a search for her lost son, Tina ventures into the High Sierras in winter, where she comes across a paved road, in the middle of the wilderness, that features heating coils under the pavement to prevent snow from sticking to it
In September 1887 my wife was visiting some of her family, so I was staying with my old friend Sherlock Holmes in Baker Street
She confessed to the murder of her husband and proved easily that she knew how to work the steam hammer
But this seemed to be just another proof of her madness.
Helene was allowed visitors at the asylum, and I went to see her on Sundays
She rarely answered questions and spent a lot of her time sewing, hut her favourite activity seemed to be catching flies, which she always released unharmed after examining them carefully.
Only once was Helene's behaviour so wild and uncontrollable that the doctor had to give her a powerful drug to calm her down
'Isn't my poor sister-in-law's extreme interest in flies just one sign of her madness?'
'But how do you explain her attitude towards her little boy?' I asked
'She never seems to consider him as her own child.'
Afterwards, she changed her mind and wanted me to find it again.'
She had been very willing to speak about her life with my brother - which seemed a happy and ordinary one - up to the time he died
and you know it,' was her reply.
I had sent her seeds and some rose bushes out of my garden.
She took me to a seat near her little square of ground.
Staring at her, I was about to say that her boy had asked the very same question a few hours earlier
She turned her head round with such force that I heard the bones crack in her neck
She opened her mouth, but said nothing; only her eyes seemed to be screaming with fear.
I had broken through her defences..
She put both her hands over her open mouth
did you kill it?' she whispered, her eyes searching my face.
you have it with you! Give it to me!' she almost shouted, seizing my arm with both her hands.
She remained quite still, looking down at her hands
I took her back and waited while she went up to her room
When the servant brought my supper, I poured myself a glass of wine, and locked the door after her
We had a special dinner to celebrate and at the end of the meal, when the servant brought in the bottle of champagne, Andre took it from her.
'We found more of the fatal drug sewn into her dress.'
'Ah, yes I heard that Madame Delambre had been writing a lot, but we could find nothing but the short note informing us that she was taking her own life.'
A man stops and looks at her hat
She came through the glass door, pulled off her little yellow hat and said, 'Is Dennis about?'
'I saw her go round to the study window.' Miss Marple lives next door and sees everything, usually when she is gardening.
'I saw her walking round her garden this afternoon.'
that when they were abroad, her husband was killed
And Dr Haydock rescued her.'
We walked down the road, which went past her house
When we reached her gate, she said, 'Please, come in and tell me what you think of my new home.'
Her hair was red gold and her make-up was perfect
When I left to go home, I looked back and saw her watching me with an anxious expression.
The man's arms were round the woman and he was kissing her.
I said the things to her that it was my duty to say, remembering all the time how that morning I had said that a world without Colonel Protheroe would be a better place.
But I felt worried because I now knew that Anne Protheroe was the kind of woman who would stop at nothing when her emotions took control
If I had enough money, I'd take her away now.'
Colonel Protheroe would hear about it - and things would be made much worse for her.
I will do everything I can to help her.'
'Is Colonel Protheroe here?' I asked her.
I called Mary and I ordered her to run and fetch Dr Haydock
Then Mary came to tell me that Griselda was back, so I went to the sitting room and told her everything
She had seen Anne Protheroe just after the Inspector had told her the news.
It's awfully old-fashioned.' A strange smile came to her lips
She's got a very definite idea in her head and she's acting upon it.'
And, yes, he remembered her name now: Mrs Lestrange.
She was in her garden.' She closed her eyes
'I'll stay with her,' Dr Haydock whispered to Melchett
'I don't want to frighten her.'
She said she was meeting her husband at the vicarage
It must have been Miss Cram because her skirt was so short.'
So Anne Protheroe says she killed her husband
'She brought it with her.'
'She had no gun with her.'
'It might have been in her handbag.'
'Colonel Melchett,' Miss Marple said, 'why don't you tell Mr Redding what Mrs Protheroe has done and explain that you don't believe her
She counted her fingers, 'One, two, three, four, five, six - yes, and a possible seven
She shook her head
Although I did hear her saying, she wanted to work herself
Miss Cram shook her head
When she came in, I asked her, 'Mary, are you sure you didn't hear the shot yesterday evening?'
So while Mary can't cook we're safe, because nobody else would want her
Also,' continued Griselda, 'you must forgive her for not caring about Colonel Protheroe's death
Because he sent her boyfriend to prison.'
There is Lettice Protheroe, I suppose, because she probably gets money after her father's death
I looked at the old lady, feeling increased respect for her intelligence.
'Well, we do not believe her story either,' said Melchett
'How could I have thought for one minute that Anne did it? I met her in the studio that afternoon...' He paused.
So I met Mrs Protheroe that evening at a quarter past six and told her my decision
I hoped no one would see me, but of course, Miss Marple was in her garden! She stopped me and I explained I was going to meet my husband
'Is that exactly what you did?' Colonel Melchett asked her.
'We'll go and see her
'Ah!' said Inspector Slack, 'that explains something Mary said when I spoke to her
And, shaking her head, she left.
There was something dead about her face
When he had gone, Mrs Lestrange also got up and held out her hand to me
And I heard that she loves old stones for her Japanese garden.'
'But why do you want to see her?'
So we walked together to her house
You remember Mrs Price Ridley's complaint about that call to her house?'
She knew we'd connect it with the first one, so she paid some village boy to make the call for her
For some reason she can't leave her house
'Because a short time afterwards she came back, and she didn't have the suitcase with her.'
Mrs Protheroe said that she had last seen her husband at about a quarter to six when they parted in the village street
But later she had realized that if her husband had been sitting at the desk, she would not have seen him.
The inspector had told me she wasn't sure of the time when he questioned her, but she was sure now.
'It's about Colonel Protheroe's death,' he had said to her
Lawrence looked at her
Can I go into the kitchen and speak to her?'
You will not see her
I will not allow it." It sounded as though the lady wanted to tell Mrs Protheroe something, and he didn't want her to
She said, "By this time tomorrow night, you may be dead." So when I heard about the murder, I said to Rose, "It's her who did it!"'
Perhaps he suspected her of the crime and was trying to protect her
But something in me said, 'It can't be her!' Why? And then something else replied, 'Because she's a very attractive woman
There were tears in her eyes
'I suppose,' I said, 'that someone else has asked her to work for them.'
'Nobody else wants her
But she's upset, so please go and talk to her.' And she pushed me into the kitchen before I could argue.
I found her here when I came back from that inquest
It's partly what makes her so attractive to everybody.'
He turned immediately to Griselda and as they talked, I heard her say, 'Do you have any ideas about the murder, Mr West?'
Miss Cram is going to Old Hall to help her
'You don't like her
Even the Napiers are saying awful things about her! Just because she left their tennis, party a bit early
I followed her up the stairs to her small sitting room
I followed Anne down to her sitting room
I think she knows something and I want to watch her.'
'Oh, yes!' She held out her hand
But I did not put the jewel into her hand
I then asked her about her financial situation
I hoped it would get her into trouble.' I told her that I would return the earring to Anne and say nothing about how I had found it.
So I went with Miss Marple into her house and telephoned Inspector Slack.
I thanked her, replaced the receiver, and turned to Miss Marple
She had picked up the paper and read it before I could stop her
The Inspector answered by opening the door for her, and Miss Cram walked out.
But before that, this lady looked around in a very strange way, to see if anyone had noticed her
It must have been her sneeze Clara heard.'
I've been trying to protect Mrs Lestrange from anything that might upset her
'In her own house?'
I would like to explain.' She paused, and I offered her a chair
Then I told her about the three notes I had received that afternoon
I told her about the picture at Old Hall with the person's face cut
I told her how Miss Cram had behaved at the police station
And I also told her about the shiny brown stone I had found
'Dr Haydock said it was picric acid.' I then asked her the question that I had wanted to ask her for some time
Miss Marple shook her head and stood up
If only that note had said something different.' She moved towards the window and on her way put her hand into the pot of a rather tired houseplant
And Lettice told her that she didn't clean properly
It upset her.'
Goodnight, Mr Clement.' And she went quickly across the lawn towards her house.
'I think you should read this,' I said, and gave her Protheroe's unfinished letter
We looked at her and said nothing
I have always liked Mrs Protheroe but I soon realized that she would do anything Lawrence Redding told her
Again, we looked at her.
And at a quarter-past seven I saw her walking to Old Hall
I gave her the second anonymous letter I had received
'Mrs Protheroe and her husband had just gone into the village
And, very strangely, she did not take her handbag
This was so that I would notice that she had no gun with her
I smiled at Miss Marple's humorous understanding of her own character.
'Oh, no!' Miss Marple shook her head
And they thought that this would make her stop
I looked at her, shocked
And then he told him of her idea.
He threw small stones at Anne's window to wake her up and she came down to the garden to talk to him
She wandered into my study and told me that she had always been sure her stepmother was involved
Saying that she had lost her yellow hat had been an excuse to search my study
'What are you going to do now?' I asked her.
Dr Haydock helped her
He was in love with her once
'But mother sent a note to me, and I arranged to leave the tennis party early and meet her near the vicarage at a quarter past six
That was why I cut up that old picture of her
But mother - well, I shall be with her till the end...' She got up and I held her hand
I needed to tell her how badly the anonymous letter had upset me
And then she told me that I should have trusted her.
'You haven't bought a book on How to Treat a Husband, have you?' I asked, as I put my arms round her.
Don't say a word to her about the baby
Tell her I've gone to play tennis
That will stop her thinking anything about babies.'
'That is not wise just now.' And then her face went pink.
'My love to dear Griselda - and tell her - that any little secret is safe with me.' Really, Miss Marple is rather sweet...
I went into the dining-room, sat down, and told her the things that I had seen.
'There is one good thing,' I said, to calm her fears
'Don't, dear!' said my wife, putting her hand on mine.
When I saw how white her face was, I began to comfort her and myself by repeating all that Ogilvy had told me about the impossibility of Martians capturing the Earth.
After that I took my wife's arm and ran with her out into the road
The strength of the Martians worried me so much that I had decided to take my wife to the south coast, and leave the country with her immediately
A woman pushed at me with her hand and rushed past me
Another pause, and then he shouted, 'The smoke of her burning goes up for ever and ever!' His eyes were wide and he pointed a thin finger in the direction of Weybridge.
She was not properly dressed and her husband followed her, shouting.
The other, younger one was hitting the man who held her arm with a whip.
It seemed that she had had a gun all the time, but it had been under her seat when they were attacked
Mrs Elphinstone - that was the name of the woman in white - refused to listen to his argument, and kept calling for 'George', but her sister-in-law was very quiet and sensible and agreed to my brother's suggestion
My brother saw Miss Elphinstone covering her eyes.
For the second time that day the girl showed her courage
'Point the gun at the man behind,' he said, giving it to her, 'it he pushes us too hard
It was very difficult to get her down to the beach, where after some time my brother caught the attention of some men from a steamboat
I thought of her in Leatherhead, frightened, in danger, thinking of me already as a dead man
The hand that hung over her knee was cut, and blood had fallen onto her dirty brown dress
'I knew-knew -' She put her hand to her throat and started to fall
I stepped forwards and caught her in my arms.
And it is strangest of all to hold my wife's hand again, and to think that I have thought of her, and that she has thought of me, among the dead.
'Effie, my wife was a young widow only twenty-five years old, when I met her
They had one child, but there was a yellow fever epidemic there, and both her husband and child died of it
After this tragedy, she decided to leave America, and come back to England to live with her aunt.
'I should also mention that her husband left her a large amount of money
When we married, my wife put all her money in my name
I gave her the cheque, and forgot about the matter
I told her that I was her neighbour, and asked her if she needed any help.
'That night I did not tell my wife about the strange face and the rude woman, but I did tell her that people were now living in the cottage.
She told me that she had wanted some fresh air, but I did not believe her
"I promise that I will tell you everything some day, but if you enter now, you will cause great sadness." Then she held me tightly, and I tried to push her off.
'When I saw my wife again I told her that there could be no peace between us until she told me the truth
'Have you ever seen a photograph of her first husband?'
'No, there was a great fire in Atlanta after her husband's death, and all her papers were destroyed.'
'Yes,' Holmes replied, 'I think her first husband is in the cottage
She ran away from him at last, and came back to England, where she changed her name and started a new life
After three years of marriage, she feels safe again, but her first husband, or some unscrupulous woman attached to him, discovers where she lives
They write to her and tell her to send them a hundred pounds, or they will tell her new husband everything
When her husband tells her that someone is living in the cottage, she knows that they are her blackmailers
In the middle of the night, while her husband is sleeping, she decides to go to the cottage
That night she is not able to convince her blackmailers to leave her alone, so she returns ihe next day
That was when her husband saw her coming out of the house
She then promises her husband that she will not return, but she wants to get rid of her blackmailers
She decides to go again, and this time she brings a photograph, which they probably asked her for
Fortunately for her, her maid warns her that her husband is coming, and she and her blackmailers leave the house in time.
She is very dark, but she is my dear little girl.' When the little girl heard these words, she ran to her mother.
'I left her in America with a trusted servant,' Mrs Munro continued, 'because she was not very healthy, but I never considered abandoning her
I kept her existence a secret from you for three years, but finally I had to see my little girl
I sent the servant a hundred pounds, and told her to come to this cottage
'You told me about her arrival in the cottage, and that night I had to see her, and that was the beginning of my troubles
He lifted the little child, kissed her, and, with the little girl in his arms, he gave his other hand to his wife.
An angry woman brought me her dead cat and called me a murderer
Then he sent one of the boys to tell her the size of the nails
Then one of them decides to stop, because she needs her hat
Then another wants her red shawl
I Now one of them needs a comb for her hair
The other wants her handkerchief
Harris frightened her away
She went to get her husband, Mr Swan
We agreed and paid her.
So Mercy finds a boyfriend who suits her needs
The trouble is, her big sister - sensible, married Connie - won't like it at all...
As Mercy puts the cover on her typewriter, the thought of the bus ride home goes through her like a pain
It is her luck, she thinks
Everything is just her luck
If she had one of those university boys for a boyfriend, wouldn't he come and take her home every evening? Certainly, Joe would love to do exactly that - with his taxi
The possibility of the other man actually coming to fetch her - oh well
Would it really be so dangerous? Doesn't one government car look like another - the hugeness of it, the dark glass, the driver in uniform? She can already see herself stepping out of the car to greet the other girls, who look at her with eyes like knives
The driver can drop her under the neem trees in the morning and pick her up from there in the evening..
anyway, she will have to wait a little while for that and it is just her bad luck.
She just wishes she could sleep deep and only wake up on the day of her first car ride to work.
'Hei Mercy.' And the door opened to show the face of Connie, her big sister, six years older, and now heavy with her second child
But that was not the reason for the uncertainty in her voice.
And she said only last week that she didn't have a penny on her, thought Connie
And I believed her because I know what they pay her is just not enough to live on
And she is not the type who would borrow money just to buy a pair of shoes; she would just wear her old pairs till things got better
I mean, I'm not her mother
Look at the sudden lines around her mouth
Connie cleared her throat and waited, afraid.
As Connie asked the next question, she wondered if the words were leaving her lips
Little sister only sits and chews her food.
Then there was only Mercy's footsteps as she went to wash her plate, and then left the kitchen
What use is a sister, if you can't have a talk with her? And what would their parents say if they were alive? They were good church-goers
'I am well.' But everything about her said bad news.
A very foolish idea, as he said sharply to her the first time she mentioned it
'Well, it's her duty
'Then it's my duty, a sister's duty, to tell her about something like this
'I see,' she said, and for the first time in the one month since she agreed to be this man's lover, the tears which suddenly rose into her eyes came there naturally.
'And you promised you wouldn't tell her.' It was Father's voice now.
'I know for sure she wants an electric motor for her sewing machine.'
I am going to London next week on government business, so if you bring me the details of the machine, I shall get her the motor.'
'Oh, are you still awake?' He quickly sits beside her
She lies down again and turns her face to the wall, and James throws himself down beside her.
What do you expect her to do?'
Connie breaks into fresh tears, and James puts his arm around her
There is one thing he must make her understand, though.
'In fact, tell her to stay with him
When Mercy took it to her, she was quite confused
She had wanted this thing for a long time, and yet one side of her said that accepting it was wrong
She took the motor with thanks; the price she paid was her silence about Mercy
In a short while, Mercy left the house to go and live in the government house that Mensar-Arthur had managed to get for her.
Mercy left her new place before anybody could throw her out
In her eyes, Mensar-Arthur and everything that went with him meant trouble for her sister and for her own feelings too
God is good, he brought the coup before her sister's affair became widely known and ruined her name...
In fact, if I were her, I wouldn't come back here either
I can't sit and see her life going wrong without feeling it
She talks about a girlfriend but I'm not sure that I know her.'
Both Connie and James cannot take their eyes off her
Still they watch her, horrified, and wondering what it's all about
Connie just sits there with her mouth open that wide...
'Some,' I replied, surprised by her strange question
A lady called Mrs Fairlie was kind to me, but now she and her husband are both dead.'
I looked at her in surprise and was about to ask her more, but just then I saw a carriage
'If you see her, stop her and take her to this address.'
'What will her face be like?' I asked myself as she got nearer
This morning I'll be your only company for breakfast since my sister Laura is in her room with a headache
She listened with interest and looked surprised when I told her the part about Mrs Fairlie.
My sister Laura is the daughter of her second marriage
In the garden we met her sister, Miss Fairlie
You see, Mr Hartright, she's the perfect student: she can't wait to begin her studies.'
I, a humble drawing teacher with no money, fell in love with the rich and beautiful Miss Laura Fairlie as soon as I saw her
I started to follow her, but then Miss Halcombe called me, and I returned to the drawing-room
Beyond her, through the window, I could see Miss Fairlie walking in the moonlight.
'She wrote this to her second husband, Mr Philip Fairlie, when he was in London on business
She has come to Limmeridge from Hampshire with her mother for a few weeks
Her mother is a respectable woman but there is something mysterious about her...'"
I noticed that she was slow in her studies, so I asked the doctor to examine her
Her clothes were old, so I gave her some of Laura's white dresses
I told her that blonde girls look nice in white
She isn't as pretty, but her hair, eyes, and figure are exactly like Laura's.'"
The touch of her fingers or the sweet smell of her hair made my heart beat fast
One day, when I had been at Limmeridge for three months, Miss Halcombe asked me to walk with her in the garden
I know you haven't told Laura that you love her
He was chosen by her father just before he died
'Anne Catherick spoke to me of an aristocrat from Hampshire who'd caused her suffering
After lunch, Miss Halcombe told me about Mr Hartright's adventure on Hampstead Heath and her mother's letter describing Anne Catherick
She also showed me an anonymous letter that her sister had received that morning:
He was obviously concerned about her pale face and sad expression
Years later, Sir Percival heard that her husband had abandoned her and her daughter was mentally disturbed
'Please, Miss Halcombe,' said Sir Percival, 'write to Mrs Catherick and ask her to confirm my explanation.'
On my last day at Limmeridge House, I talked to Miss Fairlie, explaining the details of her father's will
I wanted to make the best marriage settlement I could in order to protect her interests, if Laura Fairlie dies, I wrote, 'the twenty thousand pounds will be left according to her will.' That evening, I sent the settlement to Sir Percival's lawyer.
Marian Halcombe's narrative (extracts from her diary)
Suddenly she seemed the stronger sister: she would not change her mind
After he had gone, Laura gave me a book of drawings that Mr Hartright had given her
'If I die, please tell Walter that I loved him!' Then she put her head on my shoulder and burst into tears.
His actions towards Anne Catherick and her mother have been generous
I noticed it in her letters, and now I see it in her face
There are things now that she will not discuss with me - her husband, her married life - but before we kept no secrets from each other.
His manner, towards Laura has changed: he does not look at her with tender interest anymore.
Now she dresses very simply and sits silently, rolling cigarettes for her husband.
And her husband? What can I say of Count Fosco? He has certainly tamed his wife, and he looks like a man who could tame a tiger
I went to Laura's room and told her what I had heard
The only part of the document that was visible was the line for her signature and the lines for the signatures of the two witnesses
'And it's strange to hear you talk of right and wrong; a woman who had a passion for her drawing teacher!'
Laura looked at him coldly then turned her back on him
When I left my chair to go to her, I heard the Count whisper to Sir Percival, 'You idiot!'
Laura walked towards the door, and I followed her.
Laura continued walking, but I whispered to her, 'Stop! Don't make an enemy of the Count!' We stopped and waited.
She said that her favourite drawing teacher was Mr Hartright
I looked away from her and saw my husband looking at me closely
She spoke of how kind Mother had been to her and said that she wanted to die and be buried beside Mother
How she hates him! She said that her mother had told her a secret - Percival's secret - and when he discovered that Anne knew it, he put her in the asylum.-'
As Laura was reading Anne's note, she heard footsteps behind her
I know you spoke to her yesterday.' Laura told him everything, but he did not believe her
He held her arm so tightly that he left dark bruises on her white skin
He took her back to the house and shut her in her room
When I went to see her, I found the room was locked
I walked up to Percival and said, 'You can't keep your wife as a prisoner in her own house! There are laws in England to protect women from cruelty and injustice!'
'Lady Glyde will be released from her room.' Then, turning to me, he added, 'Let me express my sincere admiration for your courage.'
Her face was pale, her hand was trembling, and her eyes looked at Laura with hatred
Laura's father (her brother) had been angry with her for marrying an Italian
She had no money of her own and had to rely on her brother's generosity, but he wasn't generous
Now she had a new reason to dislike her.
I hope you can both forgive her.'
I've tried to find her, but I can't.'
'I saw a woman by the lake, but I only saw her from behind.'
I admire Marian greatly; her intellect, graceful style and courage
And even though they are opposed, and even though I will be victorious, I want Miss Halcombe to know how much I admire her diary and that nothing in it contributed to my victory and her failure.
During that time, Lady Glyde was so worried about her sister that she herself became ill and stayed in her room.
The next day, when the Count returned from the lake, I heard Sir Percival ask him, 'Did you find her?' The Count did not reply but he smiled
She was still weak and depressed, and she asked me to take her to her sister's room
'She didn't tell me she was going or say goodbye! I must go to her immediately!'
I took her to the station
The only way to make her go to Cumberland was to tell her that her sister had already gone
Dr Goodricke examined her and said, 'This is a serious case of heart disease
The dead lady's husband was out of the country, so my mistress arranged for the lady to be buried in her home town in Cumberland in the same grave as her mother.
2.) He was never alone in the room with her.
I still loved Laura, but I knew I had to live without her
In the deepest misery, I went to Limmeridge to see her grave
When they saw me, one lifted up her veil
It was Miss Halcombe, her face sadly changed by suffering and sadness
I looked at her closely
She stopped in front of me and lifted up her veil
Standing before me - beside her own grave - was Laura, Lady Glyde!
Her face was pale and thin, and her long suffering in the asylum had affected her mind, so that her expression was vague and her memory confused
Because of our great love for her, Miss Halcombe and I had recognised her immediately, but the Count's letter had influenced Mr Fairlie, and even the servants at Limmeridge House had not recognised her.
'We must bring them to justice! We must give Laura back her true identity! Mr Kyrle says we can't prove that she is Lady Glyde, so we must force one of them to confess it
When I left her house, I saw two men following me, but I did not care
His mother was already married when his father - Sir F - met her
She had married in Ireland but returned to her parents in Hampshire when her husband treated her badly
No one in Hampshire knew anything about her marriage, so when Sir F said that he had married her, no one suspected anything
Anne was in the room, and he told her to leave rather rudely
He was sure that she knew his secret, so he put her in the asylum
The next day we told Laura that her husband was dead and that her marriage, the greatest error of her life, was over.
Now she looked like the Laura I first met at Limmeridge: her expression was lively once more, she smiled frequently, and she had lost that sad nervous look that made her so very like Anne Catherick
The only thing that had not improved was her memory of the period between her departure from Blackwater Park and her escape from the asylum
Mr Kyrle told us that if she could not remember what had happened to her, we had no hope of proving her identity.
Some parts of her mother's letter were of particular interest
She was very like Laura, and Laura was very like her father
A little more than a year had passed since she had said that, and now her wish had come true
Throughout her long illness, I had been like a brother to her
I want to protect her and fight for her interests with all my strength
I want to marry her so that I'll have the right to protect her
"I'll go and speak to her now.' She ran out of the room, and I waited, trembling
After a few minutes, Laura ran into the room and threw her arms around my neck
I told her that Lady Glyde had sent me
I said that Lady Glyde had gone to London and wanted Anne to go there too to meet her
I told her to meet me in the village the next day
Her anxiety caused her to become very ill indeed, and the next day she died
In her, book Letters on Education (1790), Catharine Macaulay - the first English female historian - told mothers and fathers to educate their girls
Her family were not rich, but they educated her
In 1788, she began working for a London book publisher, who published her novel Mary: A Fiction (1788) and some of her other books
In 2011, a group of people wanted to get money for a statue of Mary in London, so they put a picture of her on the Houses of Parliament
She wrote about the last days before her school closed
Two of her friends were also hurt.
When Malala got better, she decided to continue her fight for girls' education.
Today, Malala and her father, Ziauddin, work in many countries
Harriet was born a slave in Maryland - this means that she and her family were not free
First, she helped her family, and then she helped others
Shirin lost her job as the president of the city court, and she had to work as a secretary.
In 2003, Shirin was given the Nobel Peace Prize for her work in democracy and human rights, and for fighting for the rights of women and children
Rigoberta Menchu is also an important woman who fought for the rights of Indigenous people in her country
Sometimes, she worked in the mountains where her family lived
In 1979 and 1980, her brother Petrocinio and her mother, Juana, were killed by Guatemalan soldiers
In 1984, her brother Victor was also killed by soldiers.
In 1981, Rigoberta ran away from Guatemala because living there was dangerous for her
In 1992, she got the Nobel Peace Prize for her work.
Both her mother and her father believed in women's rights.
When she was older, they paid for her to go to a women's school in Paris.
Sometimes, the police forced her to eat, which was very painful
She spent her life writing and thinking.
Simone de Beauvoir wrote her most famous work, Le Deuxieme Sexe (The Second Sex), in 1949
Ten years after her book was published, more than half of the workers in the West were women
In the 1980s, she spent a lot of time in prison because of her work
In her book, Memoirs from a Women's Prison (1983), she wrote, "Danger has been a part of my life ever since I picked up a pen and wrote
Nothing is more perilous than truth in a world that lies." People have called her "the Simone de Beauvoir of the Arab World".
In 2013, Sheryl wrote her first book, Lean In: Women, Work, and the Will to Lead
In January 2018, she left her job in China because the BBC were paying women less than men
In 1903, Marie Curie was given the Nobel Prize in Physics with her husband, Pierre, for their work on radioactivity
In 1911, she won the Nobel Prize in Chemistry without her husband
There she met Pierre Curie, who became her husband
Polonium was named after her country, Poland
But men scientists in France gave Marie a lot of problems, and she never got enough money for her work
At the end of the 1920s, Marie became very ill because of her work, and she died in 1934.
Lise was very famous late in her life, but she was not given the 1944 Nobel Prize in Chemistry
Her father did not want her to be a scientist because it was difficult for women, and he told her to study something different
Rosalind is most famous for her work on DNA while at King's College, London.
She also teaches at the University of Washington, and she gives talks about her work
There were eight children in her family, and, when Nancy was young, they were very poor
But Nancy and her husband were not happy, and they divorced in 1903
Two years later, Nancy moved to England with her son and her sister Phyllis
Sirimavo came from a rich family, but she always wanted to help the poor people in her country.
She went into politics when her husband, Prime Minister Solomon Bandaranaike, was killed in 1959.
"She only knows about the kitchen," said her friends.
She became the world's first woman prime minister, and she led her country's government three times
Hillary was the First Lady of the United States from 1993 to 2001 because her husband, Bill Clinton, was president
In 2016, the Democratic Party chose her to take part in the election of president of the USA
She won the "popular vote", which means that more of the Americans who voted, voted for her, but she was not elected.
Hillary is a lawyer, and in her career, she has worked hard for the rights of women and of families
The other woman was Benazir Bhutto, prime minister of Pakistan, who had her baby in 1990
She saw her first aeroplane at the age of ten
"I did not understand it at the time," she said later, "but I believe that little red aeroplane said something to me as it went by." In 1920, a pilot took her up in an aeroplane, and that changed her life
Later that year, she bought her first aeroplane
She wrote a book, The Fun of It, about her journey
In 1937, as Amelia was close to her 40th birthday, she was ready for a big journey
In a letter to her husband, George Putnam, during her last flight, she showed how brave she was
She flew aeroplanes for her job at the age of twenty
She tested better than John Glenn, the man who went to the Moon! She passed her tests and was ready to go into space
Her parents worked on a farm, and her father was killed during World War Two
Valentina left school when she was sixteen and worked at a factory, but she continued her education in the evenings
She was not a pilot, but she joined the programme because of her 126 parachute jumps
People called her "the flying housewife", which is a word for a woman who stays at home to look after her husband and children
Her teacher told her to become a runner
Other people said she had to look after her husband and her children! But Fanny started the 1948 Games by winning two races - one of them was the 100 metres
She showed everyone that a woman could be a housewife and still win gold medals! In 1999, Fanny Blankers-Koen was voted Female Athlete of the Century because of her four gold medals at the 1948 Games.
She asked her father what sport she could play
A few months later, Billie Jean's friend took her to play tennis for the first time
Still, she told her mother that she was going to be number one in the world
That was because she wore the short trousers her mother made her wear
This taught her that being a tennis player was more difficult for girls.
When she got older, Billie Jean began winning big tennis tournaments, and in 1966, she achieved her dream
In her tennis career, Billie Jean won thirty-nine big tournament titles
Ruvimbo's husband hit her, and sometimes she had to sleep outside
Don Carlos calls her and she comes to the patio
"You want to marry me!" She is surprised and her face is red.
She runs away and tells her mother.
She sees standing in front of her
"Let me kiss your hand." Zorro takes her small hand and kisses it
Lolita must choose her husband herself, but you have my permission to court her!"
Captain Ramon takes her hand and says, "Don't run away, Lolita
"I must punish Lolita, her family and Zorro for their insults!" he thinks
Give her some flowers
"Yes, I can protect her," says Friar Felipe
He sees Lolita on her horse